What's Wrong With Me?
~*` Not a long, heartfelt "blog"... `*~
...just wondering aloud what is wrong with me. I'm too surly, cynical and easily annoyed for a 24-year-old. I have no energy half the time and every little thing irritates me. It's like I've lost my inner child, or more like I brutally murdered her and left her in a river somewhere. Is this part of depression? Is this from not being healthy enough? Is it from being stuck in the same situation(s) all the time? I used to be good around kids, I used to be hyperactive and happy. Now what used to be "just a bad day" happens more often than the normal or good days, and working up a smile or good nature takes more and more effort. I've never been good at "faking it", and I'm not finding it any easier now. I don't want to be the "bad guy", but I feel like I am.
My few years of strife couldn't have done that much damage... could they?
...just wondering aloud what is wrong with me. I'm too surly, cynical and easily annoyed for a 24-year-old. I have no energy half the time and every little thing irritates me. It's like I've lost my inner child, or more like I brutally murdered her and left her in a river somewhere. Is this part of depression? Is this from not being healthy enough? Is it from being stuck in the same situation(s) all the time? I used to be good around kids, I used to be hyperactive and happy. Now what used to be "just a bad day" happens more often than the normal or good days, and working up a smile or good nature takes more and more effort. I've never been good at "faking it", and I'm not finding it any easier now. I don't want to be the "bad guy", but I feel like I am.
My few years of strife couldn't have done that much damage... could they?