Here I go again..
Yeah, so I'm looking back on the years that have passed as I do from time to time. I feel as though when I see what the past was like that I have a lot to be thankful for. My family is amazing and I cherish them with every bit of my heart. My friends are there to listen to me complain, or just to be silly. They are what holds me together when the world is pulling me at both ends. They give me comfort and trust and I could not be me without them. I've noticed that everything that has happened to me has made me a bit stronger. Things that have happened to me I never thought I'd have to endure..I never though that some of those things could ever happen to me. But they did and hey I am still here and going strong. It is true that God will not give us anything we cannot handle even though at the time it feels like a mountain is on top of us weighing us down. All we truely need in life is love and I have learned that more so lately then ever. I met John and his friends a few weeks ago. They are amazing guys. They really have my back and are my new best guy friends. I spent the night @ John's house after doing some investigating from random ppl that know him and they didn't have anything bad to say. I was sober and everyone else was pretty gone. Nothing happened and that's awesome. I'm glad. He's a doll. I call him a southern gentlemen..and I feel safe and happy around him. He makes me feel worthy. You may think I was pretty stupid to already stay with him after only knowing him a while but I have this wonderful feeling about him and I just know he is a good guy. I cannot explain it..it's just what I feel and I know I'm right. He explained to me that I am enough for any guy and that what I want is okay and that I will find the right guy soon enough.