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hi..its halloween 2day. didnt do anything special. i took my niece out for a little n steve came over for about an hour. me and steve broke up last night. but were back now i guess. im just so confused right now i really really really duno wat to do. like my head is tellin me to do one thing but my heart is tellin me something totally different. i duno wat is right anymore. i just feel so wrong sometimes. like im making a mistake. but im not. i just feel weird. i think maybe i should do something about this feeling but then i dont want to. i just want everything to be okay. i mean it will in the end im just not sure wat to do right now. nothing feels right anymore. wen im with him i feel like..weird. like not the same as usual. maybe its just me. i duno. i dont even kno wat im supposed to do next. i guess we'll just see how things go from here. maybe they'll go good maybe they'll go bad who knows. i just love him so much. i dont want anything to happen. i just wanna be happy n be happy forever. i dont wanna be sad or upset anymore. christ i think ive went through enough sadness already to last me a lifetime i dont need anymore. but i duno. i guess we'll just see wat happens. i gotta go now..