just go just go just go

[i_love_tofu]

My mind is clear, i'm sober, i'm home, and i don't want to be here. I have been running from myself as long as i possibly can. Somehow, someway, they tied me down tonight, and i hate where i am. I want to get the fuck out of this house, i want to run as fast as i can and never look back. I want to quit my job, be poor and live out of the back of a shitty car and live on bread and water and live the purest, most truly true life that i can barely concieve for it is so grand. I have abandoned what was my home, and my home has abandoned me. Now, for one night, i was forced to crawl back, only to find an empty house with an empty mind and an empty love that touches me like the cold dead hands that i once held. Please, please god, just get me away from me. I want to run, i want to drink, i want to love, i want to live, i want to cry, i want to feel, but i think i might die. right now though, in this moment, i am none, and you are you.

P.S. I absolutely fucking hate not having a car. I'm just damned ready to hand over my fucken bank account, fuck the money, just give me a set of wheels to drive me into the ocean, away from this world.