hey jude dont make it bad.
i went to baton rouge all weekend because of rita and also because my cousins and his friends were in town..so i went to the mall w my gmaw and Z..got some really cute things..we saw the corpse bride which was tres cute...jason came over at one point and acted extremely shady..he is such an ass..well yeah then he left and came back w his wierdo friend to try to get some illegal drink my gpaw..and of course he was rejected..he is soo efing retarded but like he didnt even introduce me to his friends..hes so rude..after everytime he came to the bay i would let him tag along with me and my friends..which i would ALWAYS introduce him to and i did enjoy his company..i mean he even came to crab fest where i really just wanted to see sam but jason came with and sat on the beach away from us smoking *(while me and sam made out..) ha.. but whatever the point is i considered him my friend and we were cool but now..pshh whatever...well i was real depressed again like all weekend and then i came back to school and talk to my friend jessica..shes so cool..she said we might fly to vegas to get hc dresses thatd be awesome..and also her hair dresser from paris is going to fly down to give us hair extensions..i was like SWeeT..i cant wait..oh yeah and over the weekend a had texted me saying he missed me and wanted to call me or some shit like that and so i waited..he didnt call(of course) so i just got a little tisy w my cousins..then i called a and he was at a hotel w constantine for a soccer tournament and he PROMISED he would call me back..and guess what..he didnt! gawd he can never fucking keep his promises..not ONE can i remember..here are just a few:
he promised we wouldnt break up until we decided to together after he moved
he would give me a promise ring
he would play and sing my favorite song at the time-blue eyes on his guitar
he would take me to the sum 41 concert
he would give me his letter man jacket
and those are just some of the promises he couldnt keep..and i know not returning a phone call isnt that big of a deal but he didnt even call me the next day..or the next day..not a text or anything..like when we do talk it seems like he cares alot and it feels like old times but then he just hurts me and hurts me y saying mean little comments that really get to me..i miss how it used to be..i miss ducky..haa..oh well whatever
and to make matters worse steven has a new girl in his life..like everytime i talk to him hes always talking about how much fun hes having in cali..and then he hung out w some girl name chelsea and he told me he really liked her and that she was PERFECT..i was like wtf! but i just said oooh ok cool..well i have ot go and hung up..now our conversations suck..and our relationship sucks too..i really do love him..i want to him to be happy though and like other girls but it just hurts..thats all.
oh and today there was a random drug search at our school and they found my cigarettes in my purse so they almost suspended me..but i just have ISS is all..no biggie i guess..it just sucks and like i was so scared..the lady was like im going to send you to "choice" which is some program that teaches about the harms of smoking or some shit like that so i started crying and she let me off but i still got iss..this is just efing great..i had a bad day AGAIN oh well..i cant wait until this weeknd so i can finally do something fun with my new friends..it wont be as much fun as me L and Sra had but it will due until i get to see them again..haha
he promised we wouldnt break up until we decided to together after he moved
he would give me a promise ring
he would play and sing my favorite song at the time-blue eyes on his guitar
he would take me to the sum 41 concert
he would give me his letter man jacket
and those are just some of the promises he couldnt keep..and i know not returning a phone call isnt that big of a deal but he didnt even call me the next day..or the next day..not a text or anything..like when we do talk it seems like he cares alot and it feels like old times but then he just hurts me and hurts me y saying mean little comments that really get to me..i miss how it used to be..i miss ducky..haa..oh well whatever
and to make matters worse steven has a new girl in his life..like everytime i talk to him hes always talking about how much fun hes having in cali..and then he hung out w some girl name chelsea and he told me he really liked her and that she was PERFECT..i was like wtf! but i just said oooh ok cool..well i have ot go and hung up..now our conversations suck..and our relationship sucks too..i really do love him..i want to him to be happy though and like other girls but it just hurts..thats all.
oh and today there was a random drug search at our school and they found my cigarettes in my purse so they almost suspended me..but i just have ISS is all..no biggie i guess..it just sucks and like i was so scared..the lady was like im going to send you to "choice" which is some program that teaches about the harms of smoking or some shit like that so i started crying and she let me off but i still got iss..this is just efing great..i had a bad day AGAIN oh well..i cant wait until this weeknd so i can finally do something fun with my new friends..it wont be as much fun as me L and Sra had but it will due until i get to see them again..haha