Jul 13, 2005 10:20
alright...yesterday L and Sra came over..had a few beers so i was a little tipsy..we smoked this really good cigar and then their mom came to pick them up..when we got in the car she said we smelled like smoke..we were like what are you talking about?! haha so yeah we went ovcer to their house..we walked down to the beach bc Sam was going to come see me..as i was waiting for him i called Mady..it was nice to talk to him again..i told him i missed him which i do..i mean i dont want to get back w him or anything i just miss him kind of..ok so i called Sam to see where he was and he gave the phone to this guy who was really gross and then to this girl..and she was being really bitchy..and i thought the girl was sporting Sam..and it turned out to be this guy that was with them's girlfriend and her 2 friends..but i got mad when i didnt know that..but she said she didnt mean to be a bitch or w.e she was just wondering who it was or something..but yeah so my mom came and picked me L and Z up to go back to my house..well Ls mom and Sra came to pick her up..at like 1am Sam and Charlie walked to my house really drunk..so i snuck out and we walked towards the yaght club..i had a cigarette for teh first time in liek a week..Charlie went on his boat..he was soo drunk and he liek almost crashed like fifty times it was so funny but also really scary..so me and Sam went to the beach and made out..i asked Sam what we were doing like if we were talking or what? and he was like we are deffinetly talking..but yeah we decided that was uncomfortable so we walked to the peir and hooked up but that was uncomfortable too haha so we hoped the fence of the yaght club pool..luckily i had my super cute sexy bathing suit...lol haha so we went swimming..we hooked up and *stuff* in the pool for like an hour..it was fun..so we got out and started walking back to my house..i went in my room and washed my face but i called Stevo bc i told him rigth before i left that id call him when i got home..but yeah so then i went to sleep..but yeah i really do like Sam alot now..like he kept telling me how much he liked me and that i was beautiful..he was so sweet and adorable...ahh..
oh and when i was a kinda tipsy or w.e i called A like 10 times..i dont know why..like i miss him i really do..i dont want to go back to how we were or anything i dont want to like him again i just miss him alot..he was my best friend and i just wish we could still be friends before he leaves and i never ever see him again..and it sucks bc when we broke up he told me that he would still be there for me and talk to me when i needed someone..but now when i need him to talk to he wont answer my calls..and so now he probly thinks im obbsessed wth him haha oh well..i seriously give up though i mean he is such an f.ing asshole i dont know whyy i waste my time thinking about him anyways..WHATEVER...