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ok so i havent updated in a long time. but whatever.
god, i seriously think something is terribly wrong with me. my parents like hate me for no reason and im like depressed all the time. its really wierd, and i need to vnt to im venting now. i don really care if anyone reads this or not.
so i wanted to go running tonght because i just needed to get out. but nno, "my better judgeent tells me not to let go go whenit is dark out". god i hate mymom sometimes. they dontt hink i am old enough or responsible enough to do anything. its totally insane. things have been happeninhg lately an d ive just been like..making them seem a lot worse then they are. like i said, there is something wrongwith me. my self esteem is like a -47, and im just like.. blah, all the time. ive been having really bad days lately, and for some reason, they dont seem to be getting any better. i mean, just as soon as i thought everything was finally getting back on track from when "everything" happened a coulpe months ago.. it all just liike. dumped back on top of me again. and i feel like shit. actaully im starting to feel like that most of the time. and people always are asking me what is wrong and i dontknow what to tell them except nothin, and just smile and act like everything is okay. i guess i just dont open up easily to other people. its wierd. so yep. as o now im a complete mess. a complete depressed, bad luck, untrustworthy/ whatever else you think of me as. i dont reeally care anymore. yeah this is a little dramatic but whatever. i just needed to vent.
bye.
god, i seriously think something is terribly wrong with me. my parents like hate me for no reason and im like depressed all the time. its really wierd, and i need to vnt to im venting now. i don really care if anyone reads this or not.
so i wanted to go running tonght because i just needed to get out. but nno, "my better judgeent tells me not to let go go whenit is dark out". god i hate mymom sometimes. they dontt hink i am old enough or responsible enough to do anything. its totally insane. things have been happeninhg lately an d ive just been like..making them seem a lot worse then they are. like i said, there is something wrongwith me. my self esteem is like a -47, and im just like.. blah, all the time. ive been having really bad days lately, and for some reason, they dont seem to be getting any better. i mean, just as soon as i thought everything was finally getting back on track from when "everything" happened a coulpe months ago.. it all just liike. dumped back on top of me again. and i feel like shit. actaully im starting to feel like that most of the time. and people always are asking me what is wrong and i dontknow what to tell them except nothin, and just smile and act like everything is okay. i guess i just dont open up easily to other people. its wierd. so yep. as o now im a complete mess. a complete depressed, bad luck, untrustworthy/ whatever else you think of me as. i dont reeally care anymore. yeah this is a little dramatic but whatever. i just needed to vent.
bye.