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i cant take all of this, ok like monday or tuesday night i found out that ryan decided to practically quit skating so he can go to regular highschool, i meen hes like going to be gone.. *crys* this is just to much, i meen, i feel he made the right decision it just hurts so much that sences hes like settling down hes going to have a gf and stuff and it just hurts somuch, why do i have to be so far away from him? i meen.. my mom knows that im depressed AND EVEN OFFERED TO SEND ME DOWN THERE..i meen this isnt my mom, she seriuosly offered to send me down there so i can live there for a while, but i meen who would i stay with? its just so argh.. and then i started to just kinda forget about it you know. even tho everytime it hought about i cried a few tears..i was starting to feel better as time went by..then tonite i just did a random search on him and i found this..
Ryan Sheckler Retires From Skateboarding!
Old and weathered from 14 long, hard years of skateboarding, Ryan Sheckler has decided to call it quits. "I've done it all," says a beleaguered Ryan. "I've won nearly every contest in the world, I've mastered every trick in the book... I mean, what else is there to do?" With no hope of coming out of retirement, the fatigued skate phenom will certainly be missed (except in the eyes of 2nd place finishers around the world).
i meen what the hell? make me feel worse? make me get all depressed again.. this is just to much i really really like love him..im seriuos and hes just 'gone' i meen..it hurts alot, i might kinda be k with this if i lived closer to him but i dont.. my mom said that she would love to live down there but of course my dad has to be a super huge dick and never move there, hes always like IM NEVER MOVING THERE.. i meen, im not happy wher ei live, i realy never have been, my friends are shit, the only thing here for me is family, but evne tho ill miss them alot i would much rather live in cali where ryan is, but of course this wont happen till i move out and by then it will most likely be to late, and i meen if id ont hear new things on ryan im going to like brake apart and just feel so weird, becuase hes really the only true thing that makes me really happy. .maybe i should just forget about him.. :'-( :'-( :'-( :'-( but i seriously like love him.. arghhhhhhhh.... srry ive been gettin like these depression posts.. ahh make me feel happy again LMAO