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[i_love_lucy_420]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

i guess it was a really good one
feels weird though
being 18 and all
feels no different
i guess i expected it to even though i pretty much knew it wouldnt

went to buy cigs at lunch with janee like i have been planning and i went to the walgreens by my house and they didnt even card me
it was so fucking disapointing
i was angry
then i went with jessica after school and bought her cigs at smokeys and they carded so i guess that sort of makes up for it

i didnt get to see henry which made me sad but whatever
i dont know
so much shit is going on
i dont really have time the rest of the week either and im not going to be here this weekend
im not rethinking anything but...maybe im just not cut out for things
i hope thats not true

i went bowling with megan, ryan, shara, bruno, jon, and mike today
it was fun
it made me happy
it was birthday bowling

im on my new laptop right now
my sneaky mother told me it wasnt here yet and had it hidden
i like i very much
still trying to figure some shit out on it though
shouldnt be too hard

i need to go finish homework now though
still have a shitload to do
plus speech which i havent done since the last tourny which was 2 saturdays ago
fuck
and clean my room
i hate this shit
oh, and call maggie moos and figure out what is going on with my job because i havent gotten any hours yet which is starting to piss me off because i need money

i have been getting increasingly aggrivated throughout the day
this isnt supposed to happen on birthdays
fuck it
whatever
nothings new
love you all...