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[i_love_leo]

january 11, 2009.
remember the date.
or not.

it wasn't hard at first.
it's so easy in my head.
like 1+1=2.
but then my heart is all like
who the fuck cares about math.

I didn't think it would be this soon.
I didn't want it to be.
every so often I'd have that thought
like it might be forever.
maybe.
in some trailer trash fantasy
where I get pregnant
and we get married young
and settle in more ways than one.
and I'd be happy enough.
happy enough not to regret
not pushing the limits
and looking a little further.
double or nothing.

I'm young.
I feel like I need room to breathe.
and after all this focus on one person
I need to prove to myself
that I can be happy being me
without him.