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[i_love_kasey]

So to sum up my day.

It has sucked. But its turning out to be better.

I cant go to english beat tonight. That doesnt really bother me too much but I let my friend down. So that sucks.

Its all my fault though. And I realize that.
I need to stop fucking up.
I need to do better at school.
I need to get off this fucking computer and do something productive.
I need to stop laying around and resting when I dont need to be.
I need to stop all of this senseless bullshit that I got into the habit of doing.
For instance I barely ever do my homework. That only affects me. Because by not doing that I just make my life worse by not getting to do the things I want to do. And then after I dont do my homework I usually dont do good on my tests and that fucks my grades up. And I dont want that to happen.
I cant beleive I have taken all of my bad habits this far. Far enough to where I (myself) realized they were bad habits. Its bullshit.

Well now that I got that into my head I am not gonna fuck up anymore, and it will pay off.
I am gonna stop being on this fucking computer as much as I am, and I will do something else.
Im going to start doing my work.
The sad thing is, is that I tried fooling myself into thinking not doing my work would be fine, but today I realized that I didnt know what the fuck I was thinking.
The other sad thing is, is that I fooled myself last year, and didnt realize my problem until now.
I am a fucked up person. The ways I used to think were fucked up.
I am glad I realized my problems.
Now I am going to change them.

-troy-