this may never start... tearing out my heart

[i_love_froggyz]

okay look *cough* adam *cough* and everyone else for that matter...

u need to get it through ur perverted brain that im not just a booty call...
its not cool to sit there and be like yeah i like u and when i get my car on the 18th we are gonna hang out!
i get all excited and happy... avoid being with other people for u...
and then u expect me to fuck u on that day?

i dotn think so!
i dont paly that fuckin game...

so thanks for nothin u ass hole...
im just glad i found out all u wanted to do was fuck me b4 i actually seen u!

so much shit has been happening... but theres the little things that kept the tears and insainity in me... but now its all released... i feel like im goin crazy and i cant stop crying...

what am i doing to cause all this for myself?
god i want to do somthing so bad... but im holding back... cuz no1 is ever gonna make me sink that low again!

its all *His fuckin fault...* i got a job and everything to make it all better, maybe i shouldnt have tryed to change things from the begining... then maybe everything would be normal or the same... insted of so much worst...

i still have charlie and steve, i kno they are good friends and will always be ther for me...
as well as my girls, Ashley and Kristyn....

but even with that i dont feel what i need to feel...

well im off...