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it is tough. I made some big changes and they have yet to result in bg things. I guess my only option is to wait. It hurts though to want something so bad and not to be able to get it. But i won't give up because that for sure won't help. I'll try until it works. Maybe the changes i made weren't big enough. maybe i need to be more deticated. i mean i look back to my actions before i maybe the changes and they are very different. I mean it can possible remain the same if i'm doing different things. its hard though. i want it so bad. I mean i look at people who already have it and i feel such a hunger for it. i dream of what it will allow me to do, on the new feelngs of possbilites. but i'll keep at it, if it takes me a year or it takes me ten i will achieve my goal.