fuck you self.

[i_lost_the_war_]

did you know?
this time last year i was ringing in the new year alone and cold and worthless and lonely.
did you know?
this time this year i am ringing in the new year alone and cold and worthless and lonely.
so what has changed this time last year? nothing.
it seems like this cycle can't leave me. i never learn from my mistakes and i did not right my wrongs. i just dug myself into deeper problems rooted with deeper hurt. one success though: i had a wonderful eight month relationship with someone i loved very much who loved me too. it's unfortunate that i let myself get the better of me. so now i have to live with another self made disaster. cut myself every night just so i won't remember what it was i did that was so wrong. hate myself a little bit more each day when it becomes clearer and clearer she's moving away.

you've lost the war.
again.