why can't i be what you need?
most of the time i don't enjoy having the window down. when your hair is whipping you in the face and it's so cold you can't feel your nose... you're trying to smoke but the ash keeps getting caught on your white shirt and all over your dashboard. it's not fun. but sometimes ... in the right car... at night... with the right person with the right music at the right volume; the moment can feel so pure and innocent. it doesn't matter if your life is a complete mess. you could be running away from home or racing just for the sake of feeling alive the moment is still ... pure. blissful. a totally euphoric feeling with no strings attached. no self righteousness or back door motives; it's something selfless and by chance. like time and life came together for the purpose of this moment of peace at such a fast pace.
and then there are those times when you are driving motionless and unfeeling to the outside world. you're turning right, left, turn signalling, stop and go like a robot programmed to move when the lights change colors. you don't question it you just do it as if it was second nature... a born reaction like breathing and blinking. so you're in this state of unconciousness and a song comes on. you don't hear it at first; you barely recognize it. and the first words are echoed in your mind... traveling from your ears to your head and finally it filters down to your heart. squeeze the steering wheel because it's all you can do to keep from crying. you finally remember why. you're finally feeling outside of your routine. you turn right instead of left. stop instead of go. take the long route home just so you can savour this moment. and you remember so clearly...
tears fall.
you aren't so unhuman anymore.
now you see me. now you don't.
and then there are those times when you are driving motionless and unfeeling to the outside world. you're turning right, left, turn signalling, stop and go like a robot programmed to move when the lights change colors. you don't question it you just do it as if it was second nature... a born reaction like breathing and blinking. so you're in this state of unconciousness and a song comes on. you don't hear it at first; you barely recognize it. and the first words are echoed in your mind... traveling from your ears to your head and finally it filters down to your heart. squeeze the steering wheel because it's all you can do to keep from crying. you finally remember why. you're finally feeling outside of your routine. you turn right instead of left. stop instead of go. take the long route home just so you can savour this moment. and you remember so clearly...
tears fall.
you aren't so unhuman anymore.
now you see me. now you don't.