Nrrrd Grrl
Okay time for an actual update. I have restarted college again. It's going well, it's just a lot of work. I'm taking 2 really hard law courses where 100 pages of college textbooks is considered light reading, but the professors are awesome and one even remembers me from when she went to prison with me so it looks promising. I'm taking two psych. courses. One is rather sciency, Sensation and Perception, and the other is more Freud and company, Personality. Personality seems to be the most promising since I have a lot of info. on that one already, something to build on.
My goal for this semester, to get some nerds back into my college life. I mean grades are definitly important, but nerds are too. During my first year here I didn't really meet too many nerds, or any really. I made friends, yes, but they were of what most society would call "normal". Then I came home over the summer and I got deeply sucked into nerd culture, much deeper than I ever have been before. You want to know how deep? I played Dungeons and Dragons multiple times...and had fun doing so. Horrible, I know. But I realized that I really miss having some nerds around while talking with these exceedingly nice people. It's nice to be able to say to someone "Dude archers totally beat axe weilders. Did you see how much higher Legolas' kill count than Gimli's? You get to stand at a distance, not get hit, and just take pure kills if you have good aim.", and not get stared at funny. Hell I may even get a nice debate with people out of it if I know some of my friends. It's not just fantasy nerds, basically anything that you can classify as nerdy I have probably dabbled in. I find that I can find a lot more to talk about them with as opposed to my more "normal" friends who can talk about clubbing or classes and such, but not really lightsabers or Death Note. I already have many sweet nerds at home, I love that they will talk to me about velociraptor physics or a new breed of zombie they made, I just need to bring some of this strangeness to college. This isn't to knock my "normal" friends, they are kind people, I just want to find someone who I can talk about my odder ideas with and get some odd ideas in return.
And, on the subject of nerdiness, I am now in love with fantasy again. There was a long period where I wasn't really into the whole "swords and dragons" scene, I was moving more and more to purely "serial killers" scene. Playing D &D has revitalized my love for fantasy, drawing me into the worlds again. I forgot how much I loved this stuff. I'm going back and reading the Dragonlance Chronicles again. They are excellent books and helped me design my moral system when I was youngers, so I say it's time to reread them. It's been about 5 or six years since I last delved into them anyway. I missed all the cliches. The elves, the seige warfare, the warrior women, all of it.
Not only that, but D & D has got me writing again. I was worried that I was going into a very long dry spell, but now it appears to be broken a bit. I used to write last year, but just some cathardic things, nothing really with any sort of substance. I'm actually having ideas and dreams again, yes there was a period where I no longer dreamt. It was kind of creepy to be honest. I missed my dreams, in all their wonderous strangeness. I think my last one I was engaged in an epic seige for the fate of the entire Roman empire. I was foot soldier battling for the sake of de-facto Imperator Augustus. We were winning too, which is rare in my dreams. For once I didn't die. Somehow becoming reimmersed in nerd culture has balanced me out again. I missed feeling balanced, I really did.
So in short, the summer has provided me with a lot of answers from unexpected places.
My goal for this semester, to get some nerds back into my college life. I mean grades are definitly important, but nerds are too. During my first year here I didn't really meet too many nerds, or any really. I made friends, yes, but they were of what most society would call "normal". Then I came home over the summer and I got deeply sucked into nerd culture, much deeper than I ever have been before. You want to know how deep? I played Dungeons and Dragons multiple times...and had fun doing so. Horrible, I know. But I realized that I really miss having some nerds around while talking with these exceedingly nice people. It's nice to be able to say to someone "Dude archers totally beat axe weilders. Did you see how much higher Legolas' kill count than Gimli's? You get to stand at a distance, not get hit, and just take pure kills if you have good aim.", and not get stared at funny. Hell I may even get a nice debate with people out of it if I know some of my friends. It's not just fantasy nerds, basically anything that you can classify as nerdy I have probably dabbled in. I find that I can find a lot more to talk about them with as opposed to my more "normal" friends who can talk about clubbing or classes and such, but not really lightsabers or Death Note. I already have many sweet nerds at home, I love that they will talk to me about velociraptor physics or a new breed of zombie they made, I just need to bring some of this strangeness to college. This isn't to knock my "normal" friends, they are kind people, I just want to find someone who I can talk about my odder ideas with and get some odd ideas in return.
And, on the subject of nerdiness, I am now in love with fantasy again. There was a long period where I wasn't really into the whole "swords and dragons" scene, I was moving more and more to purely "serial killers" scene. Playing D &D has revitalized my love for fantasy, drawing me into the worlds again. I forgot how much I loved this stuff. I'm going back and reading the Dragonlance Chronicles again. They are excellent books and helped me design my moral system when I was youngers, so I say it's time to reread them. It's been about 5 or six years since I last delved into them anyway. I missed all the cliches. The elves, the seige warfare, the warrior women, all of it.
Not only that, but D & D has got me writing again. I was worried that I was going into a very long dry spell, but now it appears to be broken a bit. I used to write last year, but just some cathardic things, nothing really with any sort of substance. I'm actually having ideas and dreams again, yes there was a period where I no longer dreamt. It was kind of creepy to be honest. I missed my dreams, in all their wonderous strangeness. I think my last one I was engaged in an epic seige for the fate of the entire Roman empire. I was foot soldier battling for the sake of de-facto Imperator Augustus. We were winning too, which is rare in my dreams. For once I didn't die. Somehow becoming reimmersed in nerd culture has balanced me out again. I missed feeling balanced, I really did.
So in short, the summer has provided me with a lot of answers from unexpected places.