I HATE THIS
i finally got my fucking prom dress...hell yeah..it looks awsome..its like a grape wine kind of color..it looks so awsome...i'm so happy. Anyway yeah...my nephew has been spending more time with us..i wounder why?...hmmm..maybe the mom is like whoa in the head and wants to go party with her friends and we are the only hope for her to go. Its all good though..at lest he isn't scared of our family anymore. Speaking about family i really miss Delilah, my niece. i haven't seen her since Easter, but still that was along time ago..sort of..ok 2 weeks ago..but still time flys. I talked her yesturday, she so funny, and stupid at the same time. Just like my B/F JOHN. i feel sorry for him..he is so funny..but he's funny cause..he's stupid..but he dosen't try to be stupid...LOL...i'm just a kidding john if u read this. You are smart keep thinking that ok...good. LOL...anyway..i actually pased Econimcs with a B..i was like...WTF...are u sure u're not pulling my dick..but then i relized he couldn't cause i have no dick....lol...yeah..i'm pretty like whoa..that i passed...well actually everyone passed. but still..i had a good grade. Anyway, we get our cap and gown on Monday, its so ugly, yellow...or gold, thats what they call it. But its yellow no matter how much the school administration says. They don't know there colors... GO BACK TO PREK AND LEARN YOUR COLORS!!!!Man, John's newphew knows more colors then they do. I tell you. Anyway, john says that he is coming to the valley on Saturday. of all the months he had to come on why this one. April is when all the cermonies for the catholic church happen. i have like 4 cousins making there Communion and damn its going to be long. its like from 1pm to 4pm. Then after words we are going to have this huge family thing..and i know i'm going to busy cause i'm going help them make the food cause u know in a mexican culture women prepare the food. Yeah...well at lest my uncle is going to cook the meat..i love how he makes the fajitas. mmmmm...oh yeah...before that i have to sell at a game, i don't know where though...got to ask my dad. And on top of things..i know i won't be able to see him because my dad acts like an ass about everything. he'll probably make me so busy that i won't have time for nothing. Plus if something goes wrong..he'll be like...its sarah's falt cause she was spending time wither her boyfriend and not paying attention to whatever goes wrong. This is sad..u have no idea how bad i feel...i hate having all this grown up responbility. i mean..i should have responsbiltiy..but its not my fault my parents volunteered for all of this. Why put me in it. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. i swear they never give me a break. Just because edna is not respon. well its their fault cause they never gaver her anything to be respons. Everything was just given to me. i can't wait when i move...then..what are they going to do then. i'm not going to stay here for ever...hell no..i'm going to bigger places..like....San Antonion...ok..its not that big..but its better then here and then i saw edna driving and i was like what the fuck..and my dad was saying a bunch of stuff that just pissed me off even more. and i was like...u know what fuck it..i've been trying to be a "good girl"...and u know what..it dosen' work..i guess good guys do finish last. i mean look at my fucked up sister...she does drugs, she embarres my parents, she has a bad attitude..never does what she is told, she has to be forced to do things...i mean..what the fuck. I guess i'll just do all that since nothing that i have been doing is working, might as well do everything that edna is doing..since it's been working for her. adn my mom is like..i don't know whats wrong with you..your just throwing your tantrums for no reason....well u know what fuck that....and she's all like..u never tell me nothing...why should ...it dosen't take a rocket scienteist to figure out whats going on...she is just preoccupied with other kids that are not ever hers. and she is like..i did this baseball for u all. and i was like..not for me...hahaha...give me a break..me play that sport..ok..i did play baseball..but i was forced too...just cause my brother was the fucking coach...fuck that. she didn't make it for me...she did it for my younger sisters...and she's like..i spend more money on you then the girls....i was like...fuck no. first of all..everything i spend is on something educational..or its something i need like shampoo or tampons or something like that. either way..it can't measure up to all the equipment she buys for them. her and my dad are just ...there is not even a word to describe it. well i guess thats about it....man i hate this.....till next time