wish i had a socket set to dismantle this morning
this is going to be depressing, something I usually am not. But I don't feel like I can let all this out to anyone, so livejournal will have to suffice.
I'm depressed, I feel like I've been a complete fool, I feel rejected, like everyone I know is uneasy around me. Well probably not everyone, but I'm in a ubiquitous exaggeration sort of mood. And the worst part is that no matter what I do or don't do, I can't change this, or myself, and I just make things worse. There are several people that I don't know how to be there for, how to be a friend to. And I love these girls, and that's what's making it so hard.
Then there's another person I can't figure out. I can't find the right things to do or say, and I think I'm just screwing things up more and more by trying to do the right thing. But I'm not about to do something mean, obviously that will really screw stuff up. No matter what I do, things won't be all right. And nothing on either side was ever DONE to make things not be all right. I hate feeling this helpless.
I'm depressed, I feel like I've been a complete fool, I feel rejected, like everyone I know is uneasy around me. Well probably not everyone, but I'm in a ubiquitous exaggeration sort of mood. And the worst part is that no matter what I do or don't do, I can't change this, or myself, and I just make things worse. There are several people that I don't know how to be there for, how to be a friend to. And I love these girls, and that's what's making it so hard.
Then there's another person I can't figure out. I can't find the right things to do or say, and I think I'm just screwing things up more and more by trying to do the right thing. But I'm not about to do something mean, obviously that will really screw stuff up. No matter what I do, things won't be all right. And nothing on either side was ever DONE to make things not be all right. I hate feeling this helpless.