need excitement .

[i_likeur_shoes]

i am so boring .
my days are exactly the same .
wake up . babysit . eat . call del . watch oc .
falls asleep eventually and start it alllll over again .
i knew it'd be like this sooner or later .
diiiiid i not :)

i saw jay.tief tonight ! ! !
no one knows how happy i was . actually .
his hug was like . . .
pure happiness ! like he was so happy to see me .
and it filled me with this complete joy !
it was like everything at that moment was changed .
everything was oka in our lives !

lol there is this boy .
one of which del has a strong hatred for .
but i can't do this anymore .
i miss him so much . with all my heart .
if this was about me then whyyy doesn't he try to contact me ! ?
we haven't actually talked in three weeks .
it's a major lame . cause i'm head over heels for him . always .
i just wish he would talk to me .
instead of pretending we don't have what we really do have .

well . . .
love always . xoxo