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I keep noticing Saiou's readings keep telling me to take a break...
...I try... I really try because I know it's something I need, but...
...maybe they aren't the real kind of breaks I need. I dunno... we have a hot spring here where I am, but I'm doubting that'll help.
The...retreat thing... to be honest... I keep thinking how great it would be to just... I dunno... go somewhere, anywhere, anyplace that's just not here. Just leave and see where things take me. Go on a journey. Explore things. Experience things. I dunno just... feel free for a while. Maybe just for a few weeks...
I'd be so tempted to ask Asuka to come with me if I did that. I really want her to experience such things too, I want to show her these things and share them with her.
But... to be honest, I'm doubting she'd leave college and everything just off the bat... even if it's just for a week or two. Lately she's been really busy with college work. I thought maybe now that we lived together I'd get to spend more time with her, but...
...heh, even when I try to spend time with her, it just gets screwed over by something else anyway.
Maybe it's one of those things I'd be better doing on my own anyway...
But... heh... possible end of the world again. How can I relax while I have that to think about!? I'm a key factor, plus I can't leave Jin to figure this out on his own...
...it said a lot about seeking someone to explain things to me in a more down to Earth way but... who could I turn too?
Kouyou-san? He's the only one I can think of but I really go to him a lot with my problems and this is just a mess.
Out of curiosity, I decided to look at what the timing in the reading could possibly mean.
Eight days ago I had been talking to Noriko about the Dark Synchros.
Eight days from now... it's the 11th.
The exact day Asuka and I got together...
...why can't things just be normal for once.
Reading over this... it just looks so crazy. I haven't really slept since I got here so... I probably should just go and do that or something.
...I try... I really try because I know it's something I need, but...
...maybe they aren't the real kind of breaks I need. I dunno... we have a hot spring here where I am, but I'm doubting that'll help.
The...retreat thing... to be honest... I keep thinking how great it would be to just... I dunno... go somewhere, anywhere, anyplace that's just not here. Just leave and see where things take me. Go on a journey. Explore things. Experience things. I dunno just... feel free for a while. Maybe just for a few weeks...
I'd be so tempted to ask Asuka to come with me if I did that. I really want her to experience such things too, I want to show her these things and share them with her.
But... to be honest, I'm doubting she'd leave college and everything just off the bat... even if it's just for a week or two. Lately she's been really busy with college work. I thought maybe now that we lived together I'd get to spend more time with her, but...
...heh, even when I try to spend time with her, it just gets screwed over by something else anyway.
Maybe it's one of those things I'd be better doing on my own anyway...
But... heh... possible end of the world again. How can I relax while I have that to think about!? I'm a key factor, plus I can't leave Jin to figure this out on his own...
...it said a lot about seeking someone to explain things to me in a more down to Earth way but... who could I turn too?
Kouyou-san? He's the only one I can think of but I really go to him a lot with my problems and this is just a mess.
Out of curiosity, I decided to look at what the timing in the reading could possibly mean.
Eight days ago I had been talking to Noriko about the Dark Synchros.
Eight days from now... it's the 11th.
The exact day Asuka and I got together...
...why can't things just be normal for once.
Reading over this... it just looks so crazy. I haven't really slept since I got here so... I probably should just go and do that or something.