Just Thinking.
Huuuuuh, it really HAS been quiet lately, even the journals have been kinda quiet. It's nice to be able to just relax and not have anything to worry about except normal stuff, like schoolwork. Although... it's bad that I keep thinking someone, somewhere, is using this time to plot to destroy the world or something... Have I really become THAT paranoid?
Y'know... with the Doctor who might be leaving and Haseo who posted a few days ago about leaving, kinda made me start really thinking about what exactly I'm gonna do when *I* leave, like... I know my goal... just don't know really how to go about getting there right now and it's something I really should be thinking about...
...and... I think, when I leave, part of me really.... doesn't want to go back home. Here I have friends, people who I see as family. Back home I really don't have that. Sure there's my parents but they'd never be home and I feel like I "flew the nest", so to speak, when I came here.
I love them, sure... but I feel I don't need their support anymore.
I don't want to go back there and just have nothing to look forward to but just being alone there... I'd feel trapped like that. I feel I need to keep moving forward, keep spreading my wings, be in a place where I have all kinds of options right in front of me and where I can meet lots of interesting people.
I guess I'm saying that next year, I won't have a home here, nor do I feel my actual home is a home anymore.
Hm...I think this ramble is telling me I should sleep and not keep writing here.
So, hummm, what have all you guys been up to lately? Tell me and lets generate some conversation here!! Even if you don't know me that well, just tell me what you're thinking! What's on your mind! Even if it's small!
Y'know... with the Doctor who might be leaving and Haseo who posted a few days ago about leaving, kinda made me start really thinking about what exactly I'm gonna do when *I* leave, like... I know my goal... just don't know really how to go about getting there right now and it's something I really should be thinking about...
...and... I think, when I leave, part of me really.... doesn't want to go back home. Here I have friends, people who I see as family. Back home I really don't have that. Sure there's my parents but they'd never be home and I feel like I "flew the nest", so to speak, when I came here.
I love them, sure... but I feel I don't need their support anymore.
I don't want to go back there and just have nothing to look forward to but just being alone there... I'd feel trapped like that. I feel I need to keep moving forward, keep spreading my wings, be in a place where I have all kinds of options right in front of me and where I can meet lots of interesting people.
I guess I'm saying that next year, I won't have a home here, nor do I feel my actual home is a home anymore.
Hm...I think this ramble is telling me I should sleep and not keep writing here.
So, hummm, what have all you guys been up to lately? Tell me and lets generate some conversation here!! Even if you don't know me that well, just tell me what you're thinking! What's on your mind! Even if it's small!