rant/coping/dealing
Day 8:
1)It's AMAZING how bitchy I get within 3 minutes of checking my work email. *sigh* Apparently I am SOLELY FOCUSED on survival/finishing what I absolutely HAVE to right now. And apparently issues that are pretty important to individual kids but NOT important to 'shit I need to deal with right now' are uhm.... well, apparently I deal with them with raaaage.
Yay, me.
2)Marking, so far, has been a pretty amazing experience. It's a little like running a multi-week mental marathon, but the amount of consistent work done by a focused team of individuals is... pretty impressive. It's bleary and I am in the "OMG WHAT ARE WE DOING? WHY ARE WE STILL HERE?" phase, but I think at the end it will be elating. And hopefully in the future it will be less long.
3) We've been chastised a little about our use of social media. I had the immediate "oh shit. me?" reaction, but going back over my posts, I think I am mostly okay. I am not sure. At least, nothing I have been saying is anything I WOULDN'T say face to face with higher ups, employers, and/or politicians. In fact, I think the process is something that those people SHOULD know about. But, regardless, someone (s) said something somewhere and people are unhappy. *shrug*
Makes me think, though, about....
4)The internet is no longer the wild wild west. Instead, it's something Orwellian. THEY ARE WATCHING AND SCREENING AND PROBING AND JUDGING. And I am caught in contemplation of the interplay between authenticity and professionalism. Self-acceptance is something I have struggled over for a long time - and documenting the struggles is part of how I cope with them. I am not sure when admitting that something is challenging, or not a seamless machine, anyhow, became offensive. HEY EVERYONE: THE GROUPS AND PROCESSES AND ASSOCIATIONS THAT BASICALLY RUN OUR SOCIETY ARE TOTALLY MADE UP OF PEOPLE. And therefore are filled with people-related issues like challenges, debate, moodiness, and flaws. WHY IS THIS A PROBLEM? In fact, why don't people realize this on their own? Why is admission of this unprofessional?
Seriously. I don't get it.
Does admitting we are humans (and therefore capable of error) just open us up to too many loopholes and inconveniences?
Annnnnnd with that, I will go back to slaving through my classroom exams. Because some flawed human has decided my marks have to be in tomorrow at noon.
1)It's AMAZING how bitchy I get within 3 minutes of checking my work email. *sigh* Apparently I am SOLELY FOCUSED on survival/finishing what I absolutely HAVE to right now. And apparently issues that are pretty important to individual kids but NOT important to 'shit I need to deal with right now' are uhm.... well, apparently I deal with them with raaaage.
Yay, me.
2)Marking, so far, has been a pretty amazing experience. It's a little like running a multi-week mental marathon, but the amount of consistent work done by a focused team of individuals is... pretty impressive. It's bleary and I am in the "OMG WHAT ARE WE DOING? WHY ARE WE STILL HERE?" phase, but I think at the end it will be elating. And hopefully in the future it will be less long.
3) We've been chastised a little about our use of social media. I had the immediate "oh shit. me?" reaction, but going back over my posts, I think I am mostly okay. I am not sure. At least, nothing I have been saying is anything I WOULDN'T say face to face with higher ups, employers, and/or politicians. In fact, I think the process is something that those people SHOULD know about. But, regardless, someone (s) said something somewhere and people are unhappy. *shrug*
Makes me think, though, about....
4)The internet is no longer the wild wild west. Instead, it's something Orwellian. THEY ARE WATCHING AND SCREENING AND PROBING AND JUDGING. And I am caught in contemplation of the interplay between authenticity and professionalism. Self-acceptance is something I have struggled over for a long time - and documenting the struggles is part of how I cope with them. I am not sure when admitting that something is challenging, or not a seamless machine, anyhow, became offensive. HEY EVERYONE: THE GROUPS AND PROCESSES AND ASSOCIATIONS THAT BASICALLY RUN OUR SOCIETY ARE TOTALLY MADE UP OF PEOPLE. And therefore are filled with people-related issues like challenges, debate, moodiness, and flaws. WHY IS THIS A PROBLEM? In fact, why don't people realize this on their own? Why is admission of this unprofessional?
Seriously. I don't get it.
Does admitting we are humans (and therefore capable of error) just open us up to too many loopholes and inconveniences?
Annnnnnd with that, I will go back to slaving through my classroom exams. Because some flawed human has decided my marks have to be in tomorrow at noon.