The Word of the Day is butterflies
I'm so nervous about my work future. I know what I'll be doing from July 2011 through June of 2012, but that's it. it makes me nervous as heck. I want to do that residency for a year and then come back to Cincinnati and join the clinical team and be a leader.
my last rotation EVER (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) is with kroger management. basically I get to go around with a bunch of the various higher-ups of the kroger pharmacy world and see what happens. it's seriously awesome. I'm understanding why decisions are made and how they get to those decisions. these guys are the dreamers of the pharmacy world and they're trying to push kroger in the direction of the future...the good mood is literally contagious. I know that changes suck, but changes are going to be what sustains kroger as a company...growth. it's also cool because I'm seeing these people as people rather than as just names that bring bad news.
but the reason I detoured topics into that explanation of kroger management is because it makes me want to try to be a better pharmacist. I think I'm good. I really do. I don't want to sound hoity toity, but I work hard and I truly think I'm good at what I do. I get along with patients and and with other workers. I love what I do. I like when other people just get it. whether it be patients that just have that look of understanding or relief when I explain something or coworkers that stop stressing out after I help with a problem. I want to be that go-to person for everybody. I want to be the best. I want my name to be one they talk about in the office with enthusiasm and a sense of pride. I want to be kroger. we're such an easy access point to health care and we need to be ready and willing to provide that access.
so needless to say, I get heart flutters whenever I think about what the heck I'm going to do with my life. will there be a job here for me in cincinnati in a year? cause we know jobs are scarce right now. next year I'll have to compete with new graduates, cincinnati pharmacy residents, and just other people trying to work here. I need to make a lasting impression on these people in the office so that they'll want me back next year. also, I want to do the clinical job when I come back. I don't want to spend a year in residency and end up being only a staff pharmacist. don't get me wrong, I want to do some staffing because it's a different side of pharmacy. but I love the side that's more focused on clinical work.
today I got an email that let us know the other OSU pharmacy residents for this year. it's all girls which I'm kind of excited kind of bummed about because it'll be great to make some more female friends, but I totally wanted there to be a mix cause I need some more guy friends too! there are two kroger/OSU residents and I am SUPER pumped with who the other one is. it's this girl named shannon who actually was in the group who interviewed at the same time as me. she seems to be one of the nicest people ever and I'm really glad that she'll be there. the girl is beautiful....and I don't know about you guys, but I think it's only fair that girls should have only one awesome trait: either brains or beauty. and she has both. boo hiss! but it's hard to be mad cause she seems to be a really cool person. plus, her boyfriend's here in cincinnati, so maybe we can carpool back down here. that would be good. another resident is from UC which is probably cool. I'm not really friends with the girl, but it's mainly just cause we're in different cliches in pharmacy school (people make friends and stick to those friends). she seems nice enough.
pray for me. I need all the prayers I can get :)
my last rotation EVER (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) is with kroger management. basically I get to go around with a bunch of the various higher-ups of the kroger pharmacy world and see what happens. it's seriously awesome. I'm understanding why decisions are made and how they get to those decisions. these guys are the dreamers of the pharmacy world and they're trying to push kroger in the direction of the future...the good mood is literally contagious. I know that changes suck, but changes are going to be what sustains kroger as a company...growth. it's also cool because I'm seeing these people as people rather than as just names that bring bad news.
but the reason I detoured topics into that explanation of kroger management is because it makes me want to try to be a better pharmacist. I think I'm good. I really do. I don't want to sound hoity toity, but I work hard and I truly think I'm good at what I do. I get along with patients and and with other workers. I love what I do. I like when other people just get it. whether it be patients that just have that look of understanding or relief when I explain something or coworkers that stop stressing out after I help with a problem. I want to be that go-to person for everybody. I want to be the best. I want my name to be one they talk about in the office with enthusiasm and a sense of pride. I want to be kroger. we're such an easy access point to health care and we need to be ready and willing to provide that access.
so needless to say, I get heart flutters whenever I think about what the heck I'm going to do with my life. will there be a job here for me in cincinnati in a year? cause we know jobs are scarce right now. next year I'll have to compete with new graduates, cincinnati pharmacy residents, and just other people trying to work here. I need to make a lasting impression on these people in the office so that they'll want me back next year. also, I want to do the clinical job when I come back. I don't want to spend a year in residency and end up being only a staff pharmacist. don't get me wrong, I want to do some staffing because it's a different side of pharmacy. but I love the side that's more focused on clinical work.
today I got an email that let us know the other OSU pharmacy residents for this year. it's all girls which I'm kind of excited kind of bummed about because it'll be great to make some more female friends, but I totally wanted there to be a mix cause I need some more guy friends too! there are two kroger/OSU residents and I am SUPER pumped with who the other one is. it's this girl named shannon who actually was in the group who interviewed at the same time as me. she seems to be one of the nicest people ever and I'm really glad that she'll be there. the girl is beautiful....and I don't know about you guys, but I think it's only fair that girls should have only one awesome trait: either brains or beauty. and she has both. boo hiss! but it's hard to be mad cause she seems to be a really cool person. plus, her boyfriend's here in cincinnati, so maybe we can carpool back down here. that would be good. another resident is from UC which is probably cool. I'm not really friends with the girl, but it's mainly just cause we're in different cliches in pharmacy school (people make friends and stick to those friends). she seems nice enough.
pray for me. I need all the prayers I can get :)