If only I could feel.
I am just one hot mess this week. I wish I could feel feelings...shit I wish I could feel my face. I am numb inside and out.
So this is how the story of my shitty week begins...
Friday everything seemed fine... I hung out with my friends Bobby and Tyler earlier in the day. and it was nice...Josh met up with us and we decided to go mudding... Tyler decided to crash us into a tree... I should have stayed inside then...knowing one bad event happened there always fallows more.
Well Friday night...Josh is acting weird. ( A bunch of friends are at Sharkys pier in Venice)... well me and Bobby run off to catch a couple drinks (nothing serious)... Afterwards we all decide to jump off the pier (Josh wasnt talking to me at this point for some fucking reason)...well stupid me... Michelle (a friend) and I decide we are scared so we will jump off together... She falls first and than I faceplant right into her face...cracking her head with my nose. I blacked out completely and people had to swim my bloody face back to shore...We spent the next 6 hours in the hospital... I had the bone from my nose sticking out of my face...they cut it off and put stitches in my nose... I broke it in two different places.
Well are friends really are true friends...they were so sweet and took amazing care of us. I love them.
Well right now it feels as if someone took a power drill and stuck it up my nose as they repeativly punched me in the face... no bueno.
Alright so the next day is our friend Krystals birthday party at a bowling ally...it went fantastic...until Josh decided to tell me that the next day he was driving his ex girlfriend who hates me, sends me hate mail, and obsesses over him still...9 hours to Georgia. (wonderful) We got in a fight...and I got pissed.
1. He waited last minute to tell me
2. He acts like a child, he is 21 yet still lets everyone else make decisions for him.
3. She sent me a text message saying that they are hooking up.
4. I feel like everything he says is a lie
5. His story just kept changing
6. He told me he slept at the airport..I really dont believe that.
7. I know I just KNOW I am going to get hurt...I am trusting my gut.
Alright...so my new boyfriend who seemed so fucking wonderful is starting to look not that wonderful to me anymore
Then I get my period...and this makes everything that sucked seem 100times more shitty
Then I break out into a rash all over my body last night because i was apparently illergic to something
Then financial aid never paid for my classes yet
Then I loose my car key at school
I am taking a pain killer and drifting off into nothing land for the next 24 hrs...
Josh is coming home soon and I am not excited...not at all...why should I be? It's not like he went on some great trip with a ton of storys to share...he spent two days in Georgia "supposibly" walkign around...but his ex told me hes been banging her these two days...and they both seem like pathological liars so I dunno who to believe
I know my typing is horrible but I don't give a fuck...
I guess in the end you cannot trust anyone but yourself.
This is why I am numb all over
So this is how the story of my shitty week begins...
Friday everything seemed fine... I hung out with my friends Bobby and Tyler earlier in the day. and it was nice...Josh met up with us and we decided to go mudding... Tyler decided to crash us into a tree... I should have stayed inside then...knowing one bad event happened there always fallows more.
Well Friday night...Josh is acting weird. ( A bunch of friends are at Sharkys pier in Venice)... well me and Bobby run off to catch a couple drinks (nothing serious)... Afterwards we all decide to jump off the pier (Josh wasnt talking to me at this point for some fucking reason)...well stupid me... Michelle (a friend) and I decide we are scared so we will jump off together... She falls first and than I faceplant right into her face...cracking her head with my nose. I blacked out completely and people had to swim my bloody face back to shore...We spent the next 6 hours in the hospital... I had the bone from my nose sticking out of my face...they cut it off and put stitches in my nose... I broke it in two different places.
Well are friends really are true friends...they were so sweet and took amazing care of us. I love them.
Well right now it feels as if someone took a power drill and stuck it up my nose as they repeativly punched me in the face... no bueno.
Alright so the next day is our friend Krystals birthday party at a bowling ally...it went fantastic...until Josh decided to tell me that the next day he was driving his ex girlfriend who hates me, sends me hate mail, and obsesses over him still...9 hours to Georgia. (wonderful) We got in a fight...and I got pissed.
1. He waited last minute to tell me
2. He acts like a child, he is 21 yet still lets everyone else make decisions for him.
3. She sent me a text message saying that they are hooking up.
4. I feel like everything he says is a lie
5. His story just kept changing
6. He told me he slept at the airport..I really dont believe that.
7. I know I just KNOW I am going to get hurt...I am trusting my gut.
Alright...so my new boyfriend who seemed so fucking wonderful is starting to look not that wonderful to me anymore
Then I get my period...and this makes everything that sucked seem 100times more shitty
Then I break out into a rash all over my body last night because i was apparently illergic to something
Then financial aid never paid for my classes yet
Then I loose my car key at school
I am taking a pain killer and drifting off into nothing land for the next 24 hrs...
Josh is coming home soon and I am not excited...not at all...why should I be? It's not like he went on some great trip with a ton of storys to share...he spent two days in Georgia "supposibly" walkign around...but his ex told me hes been banging her these two days...and they both seem like pathological liars so I dunno who to believe
I know my typing is horrible but I don't give a fuck...
I guess in the end you cannot trust anyone but yourself.
This is why I am numb all over