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i no i haven't updated in a while..but i need to serioulsy vent.....i was watching Into The West and its really good but so sad and i don't want to watch it any more but im drawn to for some reason........ive cried twice in this one 2 hour period...its so well written and acted that it should win like an oscar or emmy or whatever because its AMAZING..........but so sad............ok on to other things....i seam to be spending most of my summer home and alone.....its so depressing that i get into this very serious funk of self pitty, depravity, and depression...im serioulsy worried about always being alone...i was fine when trouper was over because he gave me some company........i don't like been alone...i wake up alone and spend the entire day all alone........but whatever at least no one checks me so it will be a shock when i die......well good night and have a pleasant life.....this might be my last entry.

I love most of you,
Cailin