Feb 23, 2005 01:44
What a nostalgic night!
First off, JP called me. I haven't spoken to him in a while. We were very good friends at one point, but I have issues and stop talking to people. This was my fault, I never told this to JP (unless I tell him tonight) but I stopped talking to him because there was literally a point where all of my friends were dealing with broken hyearts and they were coming to me for advice. I could not deal with it and just stopped talking to people, instead of saying "Hey! I can't handle this now." That would have been the honorable thing. I knew all along that he could have done ten times better than the guy that he was with and I told him that a lot but, being in the state of mind that he was in, really couldn't grasp that. It would anger me, yet here I am trying to get over the guy who has broken my heart countless times. So, JP, I apologize wholeheartedly. You are an amazing guy & it would be an honor for me to be a very good friend to you again.
The other nostalgic moment was Lex. The last time I saw Mr. Xayvier was either in April in Kirk's dorm, or when I played Chess with him in Cosi. First off, he's unbelievably beautiful & second of all, he knows how I think. However, Rich told me that Lex tried getting with him at a club and I felt betrayed. Again, not acting like a true friend, I just believed Rich and tried to forget about Lex. Deep down I missed our friendship. His hugs managed to make you feel so unbelievably happy. Again, I will try my damndest to attain a good friendship like we once had.
Keep in mind, both of these fellerz is PR (not Puerto Rican, but Pre-Rich) and I have known and respected them for a while. I would do anything for them and still will.
Way to be honest, Tim.