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ive soo been thinking about a lot of things. for instince that fact that i have a heart and when your good friends with some one for a while and then they arnt there its hard to take. so me being the person that i am, try and fix it. i did this the other day while in johnstown. tried fixing it. talking to her mom. i appologized to her and her gram but her mom just wouldnt stop bitching and putting me down. finally she said get the fuck away from me and winded up the window. i called her a bitch and told her shes going to hell. i realized something that night. they dont deserve me. they dont deserve my love or anything. ive wasted so much time trying to appologize to them when its them who should be appologizing to me. i did nothing. well atleast not till they decided to be cruel and push me and meg out of their life cause were friends with someone they arnt. im just waiting for the day that they wake up, realizing that they are by them selves and wish and wish and wish that they wouldnt have done what they did to us. i was such a good friend to them both. bought them both stuff, listened when they needed someone to listen to and never once judged them. i tried for months and months to not get upset cause i found stuff out that one would say about me, and do behind my back cause i loved her. love fades. and its gone. ill miss them. probably for awhile till i dont remember they were in my liife. im trying to move on without them. meeting new people and making new memories with the friends that i adore and that adore me back!
so to some recent news i got a new tattoo. its on my side. left side. its 9 stars and they are black and piink. i love them. and i hate that people said they didnt like them and they were fucked up. they arnt. they are just the way i want them. none of the stars on my body are perfect nor do i want them to be cause im not perfect. they fit me and they are mine....forever.
i was also recently falling for someone. we would talk alot during the day and such. then my ex came into the picture. now that guy doesnt talk to me anymore. they are going to parties and hanging out and doing all kinds of stuff. spending the night with eachother. and i just wanna barf. everyone knew i liked this person and he steps in and takes it away. i dont even know for sure if there would have been something but to know that i liked you that much and go and party and hangout with my ex and not talk to me anymore is kinda low. and its done. you dont deserve me if thats the road your going. you got pissed cause of a friend doing that to you and you just did it to me.
ive been having a blast with my friends as they are. going on out of town shows with dropout high. growing closerr with all of them but one. nor do i care about that one. i love the rest with everything i have. they are so cool and im glad of the way things are turning out. aubree has a new hizous! woot! she is living with cassie and this new girl jen. jen is awesome as fuck. she is so cool and really adorable. meghan is doing great! weve gotten closer over these past few months and im glad that we are. shes like a sister that i dont have cause mine can be a bitch. haha. we argue over some things but they pass and at the end of the day we still tell eachother we love the other. its amazing. i would do anything for any of my friends and im sure they would do the same. ive made some awesome ass friends at spencers too. i love them with my all and hope that i will be able to work with them when the hollidays come.
theres this hott boy down at hot topic. haha. im not sure if he was hitting on me or not yesterday when i bought my sweet ass tanks. i think he was. hes gay for all of you wondering ;). i could see myself getting to know him. hes adorable. nose piercing and lip piercing and hott ass hair. plus hes tall. haha. thats hotter<3 i love how my blog/updates are so random. i think i have add. oh well. haha.
so to some recent news i got a new tattoo. its on my side. left side. its 9 stars and they are black and piink. i love them. and i hate that people said they didnt like them and they were fucked up. they arnt. they are just the way i want them. none of the stars on my body are perfect nor do i want them to be cause im not perfect. they fit me and they are mine....forever.
i was also recently falling for someone. we would talk alot during the day and such. then my ex came into the picture. now that guy doesnt talk to me anymore. they are going to parties and hanging out and doing all kinds of stuff. spending the night with eachother. and i just wanna barf. everyone knew i liked this person and he steps in and takes it away. i dont even know for sure if there would have been something but to know that i liked you that much and go and party and hangout with my ex and not talk to me anymore is kinda low. and its done. you dont deserve me if thats the road your going. you got pissed cause of a friend doing that to you and you just did it to me.
ive been having a blast with my friends as they are. going on out of town shows with dropout high. growing closerr with all of them but one. nor do i care about that one. i love the rest with everything i have. they are so cool and im glad of the way things are turning out. aubree has a new hizous! woot! she is living with cassie and this new girl jen. jen is awesome as fuck. she is so cool and really adorable. meghan is doing great! weve gotten closer over these past few months and im glad that we are. shes like a sister that i dont have cause mine can be a bitch. haha. we argue over some things but they pass and at the end of the day we still tell eachother we love the other. its amazing. i would do anything for any of my friends and im sure they would do the same. ive made some awesome ass friends at spencers too. i love them with my all and hope that i will be able to work with them when the hollidays come.
theres this hott boy down at hot topic. haha. im not sure if he was hitting on me or not yesterday when i bought my sweet ass tanks. i think he was. hes gay for all of you wondering ;). i could see myself getting to know him. hes adorable. nose piercing and lip piercing and hott ass hair. plus hes tall. haha. thats hotter<3 i love how my blog/updates are so random. i think i have add. oh well. haha.