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sometimes i wonder why im here. why altoona why my parents moved here. i mean i have my friends who i love verry verry much and the same with my family but im not meant to be here. my life isnt supposed to be set in altoona. im destined for bigger things, bigger cities. two of my really good friends just went back to texas yesterday before i had to go to work. i saw them, kissed them both good-bye and we went on our own ways. i cried. cant help it. when someone you love leaves you and goes 1500 miles away its hard not to.
im looking into colleges out of state. my uncle is gonna help me. im trying to look into colleges in texas. i have to get to the library to get SAT books so i can take them again because my last scores wernt my best and i know this. i also wish i would have paid attention in school while i was there. you cant go back and fix things like that, and kids dont think that it matters. but take me for an example. i goofed off in highschool and jr. high and now penn state wont accept me cause of my grades and sat scores. you want to pay attention it will mess up what you want to do with yourself. if i choose to go to pennstate then i have to take provisional classes that do nothing for what i want to do with my life, they just prove that i want to be there.
i need another job. working at journeys is awesome and all but working with shoes is really really boring. haha. i mean once back to school starts back up im sure it would be great but right now its sorta depressing going to work. i probably have a job at spencers for the hollidays. i am friends with everyone who works there so im really looking forward to halloween:) i also need a second job just to get my fines out of my way so i can look forward to buying things for me. i want a car. a nice one not some hunk of shit. i want to go visit sarah, woody, and bryant in texas. i love them. and miss them. i want to be able to go to nyc. i miss that place more than anything.
i just got my first tattoo. two stars on both of my wrists. at first i got them just to get them cause i liked them and now i have them named after my texans. the right wrist is sarah and woody and the left wrist is me and bryant. i know i keep talking about them but i cant get them off my head. woodys in the army and is leaving for iraq in october and it kills me. i cant even listen to the song american soldier by toby keith without crying. i love him so much and i think he wants out but cant get out of it. unless he goes awal and he cant do that.
i dont even know the point of this update or if anyone is gonna read it. haha. i just havent made an actual update in so long i figured it was about due!
im looking into colleges out of state. my uncle is gonna help me. im trying to look into colleges in texas. i have to get to the library to get SAT books so i can take them again because my last scores wernt my best and i know this. i also wish i would have paid attention in school while i was there. you cant go back and fix things like that, and kids dont think that it matters. but take me for an example. i goofed off in highschool and jr. high and now penn state wont accept me cause of my grades and sat scores. you want to pay attention it will mess up what you want to do with yourself. if i choose to go to pennstate then i have to take provisional classes that do nothing for what i want to do with my life, they just prove that i want to be there.
i need another job. working at journeys is awesome and all but working with shoes is really really boring. haha. i mean once back to school starts back up im sure it would be great but right now its sorta depressing going to work. i probably have a job at spencers for the hollidays. i am friends with everyone who works there so im really looking forward to halloween:) i also need a second job just to get my fines out of my way so i can look forward to buying things for me. i want a car. a nice one not some hunk of shit. i want to go visit sarah, woody, and bryant in texas. i love them. and miss them. i want to be able to go to nyc. i miss that place more than anything.
i just got my first tattoo. two stars on both of my wrists. at first i got them just to get them cause i liked them and now i have them named after my texans. the right wrist is sarah and woody and the left wrist is me and bryant. i know i keep talking about them but i cant get them off my head. woodys in the army and is leaving for iraq in october and it kills me. i cant even listen to the song american soldier by toby keith without crying. i love him so much and i think he wants out but cant get out of it. unless he goes awal and he cant do that.
i dont even know the point of this update or if anyone is gonna read it. haha. i just havent made an actual update in so long i figured it was about due!