end of day thoughts.

[i_know_ninjas]

Cluttered is how I am
Shafted is how I feel

You need both wings to fly

I am leaving you all
To grow up
I need to go
Leave you behind
No longer able to grow along
Your side(s)
I can no longer
Be the one
Who drives herself home drunk
Pukes in the garden
Pisses in the bush
Stumbles inside paranoid
To every wooden creak

Carry on
My sweet path
Grow up
Grow away
Grow
Grow
Grow

X

You just thought I was kool
My art impressed you
Enjoyed my rambles
Of politics and ethics
Couldn’t handle my heat
But you didn’t walk away singed

x

i don't like you much anymore. you haven't impressed me. ofcourse though, you don't try to be anything to me but nothing. why would i support your art? going to the show would be tasteless to me. you want to be numb to me. and i ask you why over and over again.. you must feel something if you are striving for the numbness. no ill will? disregarding a person as someone you dig or respect is nothing other than a poorly judged action non as ill willed. badly willed. lack of will. poorly willed. weakly willed. i do think your full of poo.

x

i just don't care anymore, about you, at least for now. until you swing back my way with words to caress my soul with.. but you never had it in you to begin with. in that i am disappointed, nothing more, nothing less. this was a flaw on my own perspective.

just b/c i lose here, doesn't mean i've lost out on learning from this.
you have no idea how you have impacted me,
but that's on you. that lies with your fear of emotions-
it is sad, you are a sad case dear.

this is my evaluation of this, of you, boy.

x

give me a couple moons, and i'll let you know how this has marinated.

ignorance is immaturity without the tools.