money is the root of all evil
I feel sick to my stomach. I owe the school over seven thousand dollars. I have applied for ten loans in the last two weeks and have been denied ALL of them. I put this on myself. I knew it was going to be expensive coming here. Why the hell did I do it? I can't stand the shame of returning home. No one can help me, only pity. God, what the heck am I going to do??? I'm asking my dad to apply for a parent plus loan for eight thou, but I really don't want to. HE has to pay that off, not me, and I can't put this on him. He was just laid off and still needs to pay my grandma more than ten thousand. Godamnit!! I fucking hate being poor. I understand now why people marry for money, why they would do anything to get out of debt. I'm contemplating doing some very bad things to get that money. Lord, you are never there when I need you. I can't blame Him or anyone. I put myself in this situation. I can't even look at my grades. Ten fucking thousand dollars down the drain and for what? To educate a quitter.