Am I Worth It?
God, what has Alex let himself in for? Does someone like me really deserve him? I'm worthless. I dont understand how he can even look at me. I'm horrible. I'm fat, ugly and worthless. I love him, but it almost breaks my heart when he tells me he loves me too. How can he love someone like me? I'm just a worthless whore. I know I shouldnt say that, but its hard not to believe it when it feels like all people ever want you for is sex. I mean, lets face it, I've never really had a choice. Ive tried saying no and look what happens. Ive been abused sexually, I forcefully lost my verginity at 6, and my ex boyfriend and his mates gang-raped me. Mabye sex is all I'm good for. Why cant he see that? Im never gonna be good for anything else, he should just fuck me and dump me like everyone else. But he wont, because he's too noce to do that. He's too good for me. God, what do I do???????????