hello again
ah 'tis been a long time since ive done one of these. i REALLY wish me, and others, would get on here much more often. i'm getting sent up to dallas on monday night for a week of audi school, so maybe i'll do some more posting then.
yes, a week of school in dallas during sxsw. so pissed. all i've wanted since last year was to take off work and get lost in the madness. but, alas, it looks like that'll have to wait yet another year. fuckin lame.
me and the girl have had some ups and downs and i think ive come to the conclusion that i am done. this city is just far too full of opportunities to argue with someone on the phone every night about petty bullshit. i never told her that leaving was a good idea and i never told her i support it and when she calls and tells me how miserable she is there, it takes every ounce of strength to not point out that she did it to herself. and for someone who usually prides himself on not holding back, thats quite a feat.
the thing is, i just dont think i care anymore. she threw my attempts at something real back in my face twice and that was enough. her deals there fell through and she magically changed her mind about things. honestly, its been almost 2 weeks and i think the damage has been done. too little too late. sorry kid.
if she was here, if she'd never left, i bet i'd be posting a very different entry but.....thats not how this story was written.
yes, a week of school in dallas during sxsw. so pissed. all i've wanted since last year was to take off work and get lost in the madness. but, alas, it looks like that'll have to wait yet another year. fuckin lame.
me and the girl have had some ups and downs and i think ive come to the conclusion that i am done. this city is just far too full of opportunities to argue with someone on the phone every night about petty bullshit. i never told her that leaving was a good idea and i never told her i support it and when she calls and tells me how miserable she is there, it takes every ounce of strength to not point out that she did it to herself. and for someone who usually prides himself on not holding back, thats quite a feat.
the thing is, i just dont think i care anymore. she threw my attempts at something real back in my face twice and that was enough. her deals there fell through and she magically changed her mind about things. honestly, its been almost 2 weeks and i think the damage has been done. too little too late. sorry kid.
if she was here, if she'd never left, i bet i'd be posting a very different entry but.....thats not how this story was written.