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[i_hold_on]

i have a feeling that what i'm doing is gonna end up hurting....a lot. but its one of those things that i gotta do otherwise it will haunt me for the rest of my life. a 'nice girl' is actually interested in me and i'd really like to know what thats all about. sure she's moving many states away on sunday but, just once, i'd like to know what dating a normal girl feels like.

and if it doesnt hurt? then i've finally shut off the switch in my brain that cares. ...success? or the surest sign of failure yet?