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rela won't fuckin answer my messages which is startin to annoy me. since he supposed to be my homeboy and shit. but the day he told me i can count on him for a ride after i finish my community service at school he doesn't come. met some dudes and ended up stoned as fuck and they gave me the ride home. not very safe nor smart and once again my dumb fatass got lucky as fuck this time like the last.
but fuck man. and i just want him to tell me str8 up what happened. someone said his car busted on him earlier that day but i wanna hear it from him cuz info via internet from other people sometimes is tricky. but i just wanna know if he's ok is all and what happened.
i've been havin some not so nice thoughts lately and it kinda bothers me and gets me all sad and shit. sometimes when kendanny talks about how he lived his life in costa rica and how he misses it and all his lil' "experiences" wit females and shit, i kinda feel bad. one girl in particular who has an obssesion wit him and its weird cuz i know i should probably care less bout the stupid psycho bitch and think nothin of it. But we speaks of her it makes me feel uncomfortable.
just hearing her name makes me wanna fly, swim, build a bout out of a car and head over to costa rica just to kill the bitch so that way he'd have nothing left to say about her. either that or just cry. he says that i'm the only reason as to why he's even stayin here in the first place cuz if it wasn't for me he'd be back home. i dunno to feel kinda good or bad but it makes me cry for some reason every time he says it.
we plan on going to costa rica one day so i can meet his family but i'm scared that once we get there he'll want to do what he did before and fall into old habits and change with me. i'm just get all out scared thinkin about it is all really. and i hate even thinkin about it and what would happen if i were to loose him. i should tell him he's the reason why i made it passed my 17th b-day alive but i'm scared if i tell him he might go "omfg i have a crazy suicidal bitch as a girlfriend" and leave me. or thinkin i'm stupid like many others or just str8 up change completely wit me. fuck man.......
but fuck man. and i just want him to tell me str8 up what happened. someone said his car busted on him earlier that day but i wanna hear it from him cuz info via internet from other people sometimes is tricky. but i just wanna know if he's ok is all and what happened.
i've been havin some not so nice thoughts lately and it kinda bothers me and gets me all sad and shit. sometimes when kendanny talks about how he lived his life in costa rica and how he misses it and all his lil' "experiences" wit females and shit, i kinda feel bad. one girl in particular who has an obssesion wit him and its weird cuz i know i should probably care less bout the stupid psycho bitch and think nothin of it. But we speaks of her it makes me feel uncomfortable.
just hearing her name makes me wanna fly, swim, build a bout out of a car and head over to costa rica just to kill the bitch so that way he'd have nothing left to say about her. either that or just cry. he says that i'm the only reason as to why he's even stayin here in the first place cuz if it wasn't for me he'd be back home. i dunno to feel kinda good or bad but it makes me cry for some reason every time he says it.
we plan on going to costa rica one day so i can meet his family but i'm scared that once we get there he'll want to do what he did before and fall into old habits and change with me. i'm just get all out scared thinkin about it is all really. and i hate even thinkin about it and what would happen if i were to loose him. i should tell him he's the reason why i made it passed my 17th b-day alive but i'm scared if i tell him he might go "omfg i have a crazy suicidal bitch as a girlfriend" and leave me. or thinkin i'm stupid like many others or just str8 up change completely wit me. fuck man.......