Plan for the day
Well, I've decided after much thought (and help and advice from others), that I will see Mike today.
I'm sure all the others are thinking, -THAT'S NOT MY ADVICE-!!
However, Dana told me something yesterday, and I have to agree with her. She said:
"Melissa, either way in this situation you're going to be hurt. If you go with your head and stop talking to him, you're going to be hurt. If you go with your heart, you're going to be hurt. If you're going to be heart either way, at least you can feel good about going with your heart. What's your heart say?'
At the time, I really didn't know what my heart had to say. Everything was very muddled and confused. I was unclear, unsure. I then decided that I needed to talk to someone that isn't as involved in the situation.
Someone whom I'm not as close to to get a good idea of what I should do.
I was speaking with Paul, someone from VAPAC, on AIM about it. It went something like this:
Paul(11:08:52 AM): And besides, Mike comes off as just a silly boy who wants to add names to his book of conquered ladies. You aren't just some name and number in a book, and you don't deserve to be treated as such.
Melissa (11:09:29 AM): Yeah...if I actually thought of Mike as that kind of person though, I wouldn't talk to him at all.
Paul (11:10:04 AM): Well that's just my opinion anyway. I just don't like how he plays games with you.
Melissa (11:11:40 AM): No one does. *sigh* I'm not sure what to do.........*oi* I think I'd have a few disappointed friends if I saw him today, but I don't want to seperate completely either. I enjoy his company on a friends level at least....I dunno. I'm just not sure how much to say and reveal to him, because I don't know if it'd make any difference
Melissa (11:12:01 AM): But maybe it would, and i'm just chicken to go there. who knows.
Paul (11:12:43 AM): All you can do is try. And if it doesn't work, at least you can say you went for it. It's more than I can say for myself most of the time.
Melissa (11:13:19 AM): That's true. I dunno. I feel like if I cut him off, I'd be giving up...and if it's something I really want, I shouldn't give up.
Melissa (11:13:25 AM): Thanks, you just made my decision for me.
Melissa (11:13:30 AM): (or guided me)
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I realized that my heart and my head were in two different places...and my head was clouding everything. I'll find out what to do in pursuit of my goal. I say I can handle anything in love, and really be there for them....
Well...shouldn't that include this?
I'm sure all the others are thinking, -THAT'S NOT MY ADVICE-!!
However, Dana told me something yesterday, and I have to agree with her. She said:
"Melissa, either way in this situation you're going to be hurt. If you go with your head and stop talking to him, you're going to be hurt. If you go with your heart, you're going to be hurt. If you're going to be heart either way, at least you can feel good about going with your heart. What's your heart say?'
At the time, I really didn't know what my heart had to say. Everything was very muddled and confused. I was unclear, unsure. I then decided that I needed to talk to someone that isn't as involved in the situation.
Someone whom I'm not as close to to get a good idea of what I should do.
I was speaking with Paul, someone from VAPAC, on AIM about it. It went something like this:
Paul(11:08:52 AM): And besides, Mike comes off as just a silly boy who wants to add names to his book of conquered ladies. You aren't just some name and number in a book, and you don't deserve to be treated as such.
Melissa (11:09:29 AM): Yeah...if I actually thought of Mike as that kind of person though, I wouldn't talk to him at all.
Paul (11:10:04 AM): Well that's just my opinion anyway. I just don't like how he plays games with you.
Melissa (11:11:40 AM): No one does. *sigh* I'm not sure what to do.........*oi* I think I'd have a few disappointed friends if I saw him today, but I don't want to seperate completely either. I enjoy his company on a friends level at least....I dunno. I'm just not sure how much to say and reveal to him, because I don't know if it'd make any difference
Melissa (11:12:01 AM): But maybe it would, and i'm just chicken to go there. who knows.
Paul (11:12:43 AM): All you can do is try. And if it doesn't work, at least you can say you went for it. It's more than I can say for myself most of the time.
Melissa (11:13:19 AM): That's true. I dunno. I feel like if I cut him off, I'd be giving up...and if it's something I really want, I shouldn't give up.
Melissa (11:13:25 AM): Thanks, you just made my decision for me.
Melissa (11:13:30 AM): (or guided me)
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I realized that my heart and my head were in two different places...and my head was clouding everything. I'll find out what to do in pursuit of my goal. I say I can handle anything in love, and really be there for them....
Well...shouldn't that include this?