pain is a great motivator
i feel like a little kid who stayed home from school to play vidya games. maybe it's b/c i don't have to go back to school till tuesday and me & kh have been playing mario kart for 3 hours.
i've been feeling really sorry for myself b/c i've been in a 'flare up' for a week now. this means i'm achy everywhere, my hips and neck hurt so bad i want to weep, i have shooting pains down my legs and sometimes my arms, my joints feel stabby, i have a headache almost all the time, and all i want to do is sleep. if i'm not sleeping, all i want to do is walk. i definitely don't want to drive or sit in class for long periods of time.
i'm especially freaked out b/c this all happened during a week when i was eating well, exercising, resting plenty, going to acupuncture and also getting massage. (sadly, it appears the latter two interventions made it all worse. the acupuncture people say it's b/c they're moving stuff around and this is common. i know this in my head, but i can't help but worry that it doesn't work after all.)
tylenol and advil have also stopped working. i'm terrified of stronger pain medicine b/c it could so easily make me crazy. i'm going to try the following and see if any of it helps:
more:
resting
walikng
pilates
studying from the prone position
vegitables
water
whole grains
meditation & chi gung
tea
chinese herbs?
private dance party in the gym
less:
coffee
sitting
cheese
nightshades
shell fish (i don't really have this anymore anyway)
listening to people say it's 'just the change of seasons'
I feel the saddest about not eating pizza very much any more. the coffee doesn't seem so bad b/c most of the time i think it's gross these days anyway. I want it to be a delicious vegitable juice or smoothie and it's just not.
anyway, the cheer-up prize goes to: bmann, e.dunbar & m.dean for letting me come to rehursal last night instead of going home to feel sorry for myself; to kh for buying and playing mario kart with me; and to lucy for always having to go for a walk b/c lord only knows it's the best thing for me to do even if i don't want to and even if it means i have to sometimes pick up poo. (evidently i really am ready to do anything to make this stop.)
i've been feeling really sorry for myself b/c i've been in a 'flare up' for a week now. this means i'm achy everywhere, my hips and neck hurt so bad i want to weep, i have shooting pains down my legs and sometimes my arms, my joints feel stabby, i have a headache almost all the time, and all i want to do is sleep. if i'm not sleeping, all i want to do is walk. i definitely don't want to drive or sit in class for long periods of time.
i'm especially freaked out b/c this all happened during a week when i was eating well, exercising, resting plenty, going to acupuncture and also getting massage. (sadly, it appears the latter two interventions made it all worse. the acupuncture people say it's b/c they're moving stuff around and this is common. i know this in my head, but i can't help but worry that it doesn't work after all.)
tylenol and advil have also stopped working. i'm terrified of stronger pain medicine b/c it could so easily make me crazy. i'm going to try the following and see if any of it helps:
more:
resting
walikng
pilates
studying from the prone position
vegitables
water
whole grains
meditation & chi gung
tea
chinese herbs?
private dance party in the gym
less:
coffee
sitting
cheese
nightshades
shell fish (i don't really have this anymore anyway)
listening to people say it's 'just the change of seasons'
I feel the saddest about not eating pizza very much any more. the coffee doesn't seem so bad b/c most of the time i think it's gross these days anyway. I want it to be a delicious vegitable juice or smoothie and it's just not.
anyway, the cheer-up prize goes to: bmann, e.dunbar & m.dean for letting me come to rehursal last night instead of going home to feel sorry for myself; to kh for buying and playing mario kart with me; and to lucy for always having to go for a walk b/c lord only knows it's the best thing for me to do even if i don't want to and even if it means i have to sometimes pick up poo. (evidently i really am ready to do anything to make this stop.)