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----> because im chocoboco's bitch...
well, now that that's out of the way. poll of the week: should i completely ditch work on saturday to go to madison? i like wouldn't even call in sick or anything. ill just be like 'OMGZ I LYKE HAD TO WERK!? NO WAYZ!11!! I FEEL SOOOOO BAD!!!eleven!" yes, i think that would do quite nicely. ive never pulled a no-call no-show before, and they love me, so if i act super apologetic and offer to be their slave for like... a millenia... i should pull through with only minimal express-induced injuries. i ended up deciding to go to madison because a) bunny's party is canceled. b) josh's party is looking to be huge and, well, the only person i would know would be josh. i could bring someone, but any of the girls that i would bring would be in madison, so that would just leave boys. josh is sorta kinda wanting to date me, so i think it would heinously tactless to bring a boy. hence, i don't go at all. don't question my logic. and everyone everyone everyone is going. if i don't, ill have
god, computer studio is the bane to my existence. no, i am not being dramatic. this class is like "photoshop for people who have absolutely no business using photoshop". Seriously. 'Where's the dodge tool?" "What's greyscale?" "Is 700 dpi okay?". im sorry for being a photoshop elitist, but i can't believe im wasting my time in this class. strike that. reverse. i can't believe that im REQUIRED to waste my time in this class in order to fufill my major requirements. im just bitter right now.
why? because my 4.0 dreams and A+ KURISUKUN!!!!! fantasies are gone. the only class I can assure that Im getting an A in is my History of Modern Design class. The only non-A I've gotten in that class was a B+ on our last test, though, i got an A on the corresponding paper, so that probably evens out to like an A- anyway.
everything else though is sitting in MAYBE A, B, and dare i say C territory. i even got a D for a process grade in my CD class. the project was 4 page layouts. i got B+s on each of the four layouts, but then a D for my process grade because I didn't have enough variety in my subject matter. (3 were people, one was of vegetables). ugh. im probably getting a C in the class
English is debatable between an A and a B (I got a D on a test i didn't read the material for, everything else is am A)
Typography is going to be a B
Computer Studio, well, better be an A. I don't think I got an A on my label project, though. Probably a B. So maybe Im getting a B in the class?
Illustration cannot possibly be an A. id say mid-low B.
anyway, that was my obligatory once-a-semester GPA rant. sorry you all had to witness that. i feel thoroughly confident in my current typography project though.
friend a is throwing a suprise birthday party for friend b. it's going to be a petting zoo theme. anyone who comes dressed up like an animal and who will let people pet them will get free unlimited alcohol. im going as a llama. mlyaaaaangh. i better get my llama shoes ready.
it was strange; for the first time ever in our friendship, ben and i had a conversation where we indirectly acknowledged the fact that we were gay. like, we talked about boys. sort of. just sort of a 'who's been with who' talk. but that's really gay. our normal conversations involve us talking about video games or making fun of aleks. this week is full of milestones galore, i suppose.
jesus god, i really hate aleks.
i have two tickets for the milwaukee independent film festival gala on saturday night. that's almost enough to make me want to stay in milwaukee, and it would be a perfect date i think, but id feel too uncomfortable asking anyone. im keen on the idea of going to a party dressed up as a llama, but asking a boy out on a date is too embarassing for me. can someone plz explain to me how someone who is so logical can be so... illogical? it just doesn't seem befitting.
I better call Patrick to see if he's up for rooming me this weekend. he should be. damned ingrate didn't get me anything for my birthday.
im in a weird mood. just lettin ya'll know in the unlikely event that this entry hasn't already evidenced that. i have this feeling like things are going to change really soon. i hope they do; i can't take these solemnly hopeful, scathingly grey days much longer.
there's this constant pressure in the pit of my stomach, the kind that really isn't a physical sensation more than an emotional one. it feels like someone is gently squeezing at my throat and chest, down through my abdomen; not hard, but dull and relentless, like these days that are weeks that are months, just enough for me to know that they are there, have happened, are happening, but no definition to them.
no amount of feverant room rearranging can admonish the winds of monotony for long.
well, now that that's out of the way. poll of the week: should i completely ditch work on saturday to go to madison? i like wouldn't even call in sick or anything. ill just be like 'OMGZ I LYKE HAD TO WERK!? NO WAYZ!11!! I FEEL SOOOOO BAD!!!eleven!" yes, i think that would do quite nicely. ive never pulled a no-call no-show before, and they love me, so if i act super apologetic and offer to be their slave for like... a millenia... i should pull through with only minimal express-induced injuries. i ended up deciding to go to madison because a) bunny's party is canceled. b) josh's party is looking to be huge and, well, the only person i would know would be josh. i could bring someone, but any of the girls that i would bring would be in madison, so that would just leave boys. josh is sorta kinda wanting to date me, so i think it would heinously tactless to bring a boy. hence, i don't go at all. don't question my logic. and everyone everyone everyone is going. if i don't, ill have
god, computer studio is the bane to my existence. no, i am not being dramatic. this class is like "photoshop for people who have absolutely no business using photoshop". Seriously. 'Where's the dodge tool?" "What's greyscale?" "Is 700 dpi okay?". im sorry for being a photoshop elitist, but i can't believe im wasting my time in this class. strike that. reverse. i can't believe that im REQUIRED to waste my time in this class in order to fufill my major requirements. im just bitter right now.
why? because my 4.0 dreams and A+ KURISUKUN!!!!! fantasies are gone. the only class I can assure that Im getting an A in is my History of Modern Design class. The only non-A I've gotten in that class was a B+ on our last test, though, i got an A on the corresponding paper, so that probably evens out to like an A- anyway.
everything else though is sitting in MAYBE A, B, and dare i say C territory. i even got a D for a process grade in my CD class. the project was 4 page layouts. i got B+s on each of the four layouts, but then a D for my process grade because I didn't have enough variety in my subject matter. (3 were people, one was of vegetables). ugh. im probably getting a C in the class
English is debatable between an A and a B (I got a D on a test i didn't read the material for, everything else is am A)
Typography is going to be a B
Computer Studio, well, better be an A. I don't think I got an A on my label project, though. Probably a B. So maybe Im getting a B in the class?
Illustration cannot possibly be an A. id say mid-low B.
anyway, that was my obligatory once-a-semester GPA rant. sorry you all had to witness that. i feel thoroughly confident in my current typography project though.
friend a is throwing a suprise birthday party for friend b. it's going to be a petting zoo theme. anyone who comes dressed up like an animal and who will let people pet them will get free unlimited alcohol. im going as a llama. mlyaaaaangh. i better get my llama shoes ready.
it was strange; for the first time ever in our friendship, ben and i had a conversation where we indirectly acknowledged the fact that we were gay. like, we talked about boys. sort of. just sort of a 'who's been with who' talk. but that's really gay. our normal conversations involve us talking about video games or making fun of aleks. this week is full of milestones galore, i suppose.
jesus god, i really hate aleks.
i have two tickets for the milwaukee independent film festival gala on saturday night. that's almost enough to make me want to stay in milwaukee, and it would be a perfect date i think, but id feel too uncomfortable asking anyone. im keen on the idea of going to a party dressed up as a llama, but asking a boy out on a date is too embarassing for me. can someone plz explain to me how someone who is so logical can be so... illogical? it just doesn't seem befitting.
I better call Patrick to see if he's up for rooming me this weekend. he should be. damned ingrate didn't get me anything for my birthday.
im in a weird mood. just lettin ya'll know in the unlikely event that this entry hasn't already evidenced that. i have this feeling like things are going to change really soon. i hope they do; i can't take these solemnly hopeful, scathingly grey days much longer.
there's this constant pressure in the pit of my stomach, the kind that really isn't a physical sensation more than an emotional one. it feels like someone is gently squeezing at my throat and chest, down through my abdomen; not hard, but dull and relentless, like these days that are weeks that are months, just enough for me to know that they are there, have happened, are happening, but no definition to them.
no amount of feverant room rearranging can admonish the winds of monotony for long.