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Your character's personality: Joan Girardi is a typical teenager. She
is somewhat self centered, but also very aware of the people around
her. SHe's been raised to be a good friend, to be loyal and
supportive. When God appears to her and gives her assignemts, she
questions him, but in the end always does as he suggests. She tends to
try to please people, to help people when she can. At the same time,
she tries not to conform, and tries to maintain her individuality as
much as possible. She's a complex person, and sometiems doesn't even
understand herself. She is sensitive to people in need, especially her
two brothers. Kevin is paralysed, Luke is often over looked by their
parents because he's *not* handicapped.
Joan is kind and considerate, and usually able to balance that with
ehr own needs. She gets attatched to people and to things very easily,
and mourns the loss of something she cares about.
Why do you want to play this character?: For one, I want a female
character. All the games I play, I play male characters. So, I'm
looking to take on a female *g*. Also, Joan is a fascinating character
whose canon was cut short, and left a lot of dangling participles at
the end. I'd like to explore some of those loose ends by developing
the character a bit more.
Joan had a direct communication with God. As described below in the
background, the people around Joan thought her seeing God was an
elaborate hallucination, and for a time Joan believed that (or perhaps
wanted to believe that) as well. On the island, I would like her to
continue to see and hear God, only it *would* actually be a
hallucination. That would be an interesting angle to explore, I think.
Especially as the islanders realise there is something very off about
this girl.
I would like to see how Joan reacts in an isolated enviornment, how
she struggles with her sanity without the comfort of home. Surrounded
by people she doesn't know, it would be interesting to see how she
grows and develops.
Tell us about your character's background: Joan was a typical
teenaged girl until one morning, while getting ready for school, she
noticed a man in the back yard, seemingly watching her. She freaked
out, ran downstairs, and discovered there was no one there...And later
that day, Joan encountered a man who claimed to be God. She soon began
to accept this for true, as God knew things only God would know, and
stated that He appeared to her in a form she could relate to. In his
true form, no human cou.ld comprehend seeing him. Through out the next
several months, Joan had many encounters with God, and though there
were recurring forms, He appeared as the school cafeteria lady, a goth
guy in make up and spiked hair, a dog walker, a utility worker, a hot
guy, a little girl on the play ground...And many other faces. As the
people around her started to realise something off about Joan, her
parents became increasingly worried, and soon put Joan in a mental
health program for the summer. Joan began to think perhaps it had all
been a dream, after all, a series of hallucinations brought on by lyme
disease. But then, God appeared to her again, and she fell back in to
old patterns, while continuing to struggle with the day to day life of
a teenaged girl.
Joan is also the middle child in her family. It is said more than once
in canon that she was supposed to be the normal one. Her older brother
Kevin was paralysed in a car accident, and his prognosis is less than
a 2% chance he will ever walk again. Her younger brother Luke is a
hopeless dork, a self described geek. He's extremely smart, and
somewhat socailly inept.
Your character's initial personal inventory:
Wearing:
White check hospital gown
white lace underwear
IV pole with 3/4 bag saline drip (IV needle and tubing)
Your character's entrance post:
I'm not sure what is happening.
I got really sick the last day of school. I passed out when Pryce and
I were doing the three legged race...He had yellow eyes that glowed,
it was freaky. And when I woke up, I was in hospital.
Lyme Disease, they said. I've probably had it a long time. It may have
caused me to hallucinate.
So now...now...I just don't know what to think. What if...what if
seeing God all this time was a hallucination? What if He was never
real?
My mind can't grasp it. I keep going over it, over and over, and I
can't make any sense of...of anything.
If He was never real...if I hallucinated all of it...
There were several versions of God in my hospital room when I woke up.
Goth God, the one from the chess game, the old woman from the book
store, the kid from the playground, even the news-anchor God. They
were all there, and they walked away when I told them to.
No one else saw them. And then they were gone. And I...I was alone.
I've never felt so alone. So completely and utterly alone. It was like
when Kevin was hurt, sitting at the hospital with Mom and Dad and
Luke, waiting and we didn't know...
I told Adam, I confided in him...I wanted him to believe me. I needed
him to tell me I wasn't crazy. He only said...he said he believed I
believed what I was telling him. Which means he didn't believe me.
And I really don't know how to deal with that.
I need to take a walk. The nurse says I shouldn't get out of bed, but
I have to. I need to walk. Walking helps clear my head sometimes.
I'm pulling the IV pole with me, and I can feel the hospital gown
hitting the back of my knees. want to go home. I want to sleep in my
own bed. I want to see Kevin. Kevin doesn't like to come to the
hospital. Bad memories, he says, and I can't blame him.
But I need him. He's my big bother and...
The hallway looks...really weird. They've decorated it like a beach. I
know it's summertime, but that's just...crazy. Or maybe I really have
lost my mind. There's sand, on the floor. The sun...How did they get
the sun inside?
Oh God. I really am crazy...
is somewhat self centered, but also very aware of the people around
her. SHe's been raised to be a good friend, to be loyal and
supportive. When God appears to her and gives her assignemts, she
questions him, but in the end always does as he suggests. She tends to
try to please people, to help people when she can. At the same time,
she tries not to conform, and tries to maintain her individuality as
much as possible. She's a complex person, and sometiems doesn't even
understand herself. She is sensitive to people in need, especially her
two brothers. Kevin is paralysed, Luke is often over looked by their
parents because he's *not* handicapped.
Joan is kind and considerate, and usually able to balance that with
ehr own needs. She gets attatched to people and to things very easily,
and mourns the loss of something she cares about.
Why do you want to play this character?: For one, I want a female
character. All the games I play, I play male characters. So, I'm
looking to take on a female *g*. Also, Joan is a fascinating character
whose canon was cut short, and left a lot of dangling participles at
the end. I'd like to explore some of those loose ends by developing
the character a bit more.
Joan had a direct communication with God. As described below in the
background, the people around Joan thought her seeing God was an
elaborate hallucination, and for a time Joan believed that (or perhaps
wanted to believe that) as well. On the island, I would like her to
continue to see and hear God, only it *would* actually be a
hallucination. That would be an interesting angle to explore, I think.
Especially as the islanders realise there is something very off about
this girl.
I would like to see how Joan reacts in an isolated enviornment, how
she struggles with her sanity without the comfort of home. Surrounded
by people she doesn't know, it would be interesting to see how she
grows and develops.
Tell us about your character's background: Joan was a typical
teenaged girl until one morning, while getting ready for school, she
noticed a man in the back yard, seemingly watching her. She freaked
out, ran downstairs, and discovered there was no one there...And later
that day, Joan encountered a man who claimed to be God. She soon began
to accept this for true, as God knew things only God would know, and
stated that He appeared to her in a form she could relate to. In his
true form, no human cou.ld comprehend seeing him. Through out the next
several months, Joan had many encounters with God, and though there
were recurring forms, He appeared as the school cafeteria lady, a goth
guy in make up and spiked hair, a dog walker, a utility worker, a hot
guy, a little girl on the play ground...And many other faces. As the
people around her started to realise something off about Joan, her
parents became increasingly worried, and soon put Joan in a mental
health program for the summer. Joan began to think perhaps it had all
been a dream, after all, a series of hallucinations brought on by lyme
disease. But then, God appeared to her again, and she fell back in to
old patterns, while continuing to struggle with the day to day life of
a teenaged girl.
Joan is also the middle child in her family. It is said more than once
in canon that she was supposed to be the normal one. Her older brother
Kevin was paralysed in a car accident, and his prognosis is less than
a 2% chance he will ever walk again. Her younger brother Luke is a
hopeless dork, a self described geek. He's extremely smart, and
somewhat socailly inept.
Your character's initial personal inventory:
Wearing:
White check hospital gown
white lace underwear
IV pole with 3/4 bag saline drip (IV needle and tubing)
Your character's entrance post:
I'm not sure what is happening.
I got really sick the last day of school. I passed out when Pryce and
I were doing the three legged race...He had yellow eyes that glowed,
it was freaky. And when I woke up, I was in hospital.
Lyme Disease, they said. I've probably had it a long time. It may have
caused me to hallucinate.
So now...now...I just don't know what to think. What if...what if
seeing God all this time was a hallucination? What if He was never
real?
My mind can't grasp it. I keep going over it, over and over, and I
can't make any sense of...of anything.
If He was never real...if I hallucinated all of it...
There were several versions of God in my hospital room when I woke up.
Goth God, the one from the chess game, the old woman from the book
store, the kid from the playground, even the news-anchor God. They
were all there, and they walked away when I told them to.
No one else saw them. And then they were gone. And I...I was alone.
I've never felt so alone. So completely and utterly alone. It was like
when Kevin was hurt, sitting at the hospital with Mom and Dad and
Luke, waiting and we didn't know...
I told Adam, I confided in him...I wanted him to believe me. I needed
him to tell me I wasn't crazy. He only said...he said he believed I
believed what I was telling him. Which means he didn't believe me.
And I really don't know how to deal with that.
I need to take a walk. The nurse says I shouldn't get out of bed, but
I have to. I need to walk. Walking helps clear my head sometimes.
I'm pulling the IV pole with me, and I can feel the hospital gown
hitting the back of my knees. want to go home. I want to sleep in my
own bed. I want to see Kevin. Kevin doesn't like to come to the
hospital. Bad memories, he says, and I can't blame him.
But I need him. He's my big bother and...
The hallway looks...really weird. They've decorated it like a beach. I
know it's summertime, but that's just...crazy. Or maybe I really have
lost my mind. There's sand, on the floor. The sun...How did they get
the sun inside?
Oh God. I really am crazy...