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[i_have_scabies]

i am home home for the holidays and the days have been dragging and i've been sagging
draped across couches for days with mucus and aches
and the house has been empty
family has school, work.
i'm stagnant sick.
dan mckee has a new girlfriend and has found new love and is happy on cloud nine with a beautiful girl... another version of me.
and me i'm a lonley longing
still
dull.
aches.
mucus.
i hope clouds will pass like the empty days have
and maybe there's light in the new year waiting
maybe this year will be my year
maybe there's new ones waiting to meet me.
all i can do is keep waiting still and longing, long and late
tick.... tick..... tick......
WHY CAN'T the time go while i wait lonleysad and stop when i've found me some smiles.
i'll feel better when i can actually get in the christmas spirit.
shit.