Guilty but hey its my off day

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So I made the call. I told her that I couldn't come in tonight. She sounded upset but hey that is her job. She called me in...it was originally my off day. I know that there is no way that I would have been able to make it a whole night at work with only an hour and half of sleep. It's not like she can fire me because I wasn't obligated to work. It was my choice. I just feel bad that at first I told her yes then I had to change my answer. I didn't want to put her on the spot but I couldn't sleep today. I don't know why, I just couldn't. She said that she would probably have to cover the shift herself. I completely felt like she was giving me the guilt trip and she was. I almost caved in and said fine i'll come in but I just sat there and waited for her to say something else. And all she said was "OK fine!" and hung up. BITCH! She hates me. I know she does. She hates me from back in the day when I was friends with her son. She was all nice to Brittney for her saying no but rude to me! Shit man, its her job to find someone who can cover. I wasn't even going to be in my original place at work. I was going to be put somewhere I had no experience in. I didn't know that until after I said yes. So I had reasons to change my mind. I feel guilty, I really do but I work hard there. I'm always on time, I stay late if i'm needed. I help out when i'm needed and I have came into work when I wasn't supposed to before because I was needed. So I just hope she doesn't get all pissy with me everytime I run into her at work.

Maybe next time they need someone to come in I'll do it. Just to let them know i'm not trying to be irresponsible.