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[i_have_died_4u]

So, people need to shut their fucking mouths, all they do is talk shit. I cant fucking take this, for this to keep constantly going, i just cannot fucking do it. I hate the people who make me feel like shit, I hate the people who have shit to fucking say, I hate the people who like to ruin things. I hate so many people. I cant take it much more, it keeps picking at me, keeps tearing away at my insides but what am I supposed to do about it? Im weak, I cant do anything, I let people walk all fucking over me and there is nothing at all I can do about it. I try to just not get involved with it all but it keeps coming up to me and giving me a nice swift kick in the gut, I cant avoid it. I feel as if I get in the way, as if Im a burden, as if people are ashamed to be seen with me, to be seen talking to me. Ive put it off for long enough and now Im just blowing off steam, not like this is going to help. People are rude to me, nobody gives me any respect, everyone loves to just pick on me and of course I play along with it cause usually I laugh, but sometimes I cant laugh, sometimes it just gets straight to the bone and hurts so much. People lie, cheat, steal, kill and all for what? To hurt others, its an interior motive that they do not recognize. I see right through it and say nothing cause I am weak. I hurt easily and this will go unnoticed by many.

Im not unhappy, just blowing off things that I should have said while I never updated this journal. Fuck you if you hurt me, fuck you if you make me feel like shit, and fuck you if you think Im nothing.

This isnt about you Courtney, I promise. I love you, you keep me happy, you keep my sanity. I am nothing without you.

FUCK YOU KAYLEA ZOSS! FUCKING NASTY ASS CUNT HAIR! GRRRRRRRRRRLJK:vpoigvfc everything people say about that is utterly bullshit, i wouldnt do anything to hurt courtney, anyone who knows me knows how much Im in love with her.