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it's been a little over a year since Jen died. I really miss her, until i actually think about it its like i forget she is gone and i feel a little bit sad almost like i have to get use to the idea all over again. lol this girl called me a creep today and its so wierd but it made me start thinkin about Jen. This one time me and her were playng basketball at my grannys house and i kicked the ball out of her hands and she pushed me down and said ugh your such a creep! the odd choice of words still makes me chuckel, plus the look on her face. she died last july and i remember being at britts house and we were planing our little make-shift scavenver hunt that we were gonna do with justin and my phone range and my mom was crying and said please come home jen was in an accident, and i thought she said jeff and swear i stopped breathing and i said what? and then she repeated it and i realized she said jen and i was relieved. i still feel guilty for that. That and i didnt cry i felt aweful but i didnt cry one tear until the funeral and then i couldnt stop. life is such a strange thing. it still makes me sad to think about her kids growing up and never really knowing how great she was. her dying jsut gave me one more reason to hate drugs and what the do to people...andyway i didnt mean to get so deep...blah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!poop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!fart!!!!!!!!!! there thats better :)