sad
this has been a shitty day, shitty week so far. i feel kinda dissapointed and discusted to be honest. maybe im in a funk or maybe im finally going back to normal, how can i tell? school will be starting soon, c-ya life! it was fun while it lasted! but im actually looking forward to it. ive been so bored with everything i need a change. new faces and new info. so im starting a diet and i WILL be 30 lbs smaller by november and 60 by feb...im so gonna be a stripper...i joke about that all the time, wouldnt everyone just pee themselves if i really did? they do make alot of money and if i got skinny enough and learned to dance i would probably do it just to surpirse everyone haha.we will see :) im reading a sad book, its about first loves and stuff ive read it like 3 times it always depresses me...why do i keep reading it?? hmm who knows i guess its like when you are sad you for some reason wanna listen to sad songs so you can feel even worse. anyway im just rambling i hoped this would make me feel better but not really