i_hate_it_here
Ever go through and look at the old things that you've written in here? I did that tonight. I have to leave for work in less than an hour and I haven't changed clothes yet I've been going through entries from 2002 and 2003.
It's weird how your first impression of someone that really makes a difference in your life can not really be that much more than meeting someone through a mutual friend at first, but then you kind of get to know them a little more and you start thinking that your life might not be the same if you were never around them. Their appearances in my story and the personal emotions that I have for them are in the older entries. You just have to know where to look.
It's kind of amusing though, even if it does make me feel a little old and a lot less interesting.
So much of this thing... so many of these older entries, are a lot more interesting I think than a lot of what's been posted here recently...but it's almost not even the same anymore. Now it seems like I write more to document my time away than it does the way I sometimes feel. Sometimes I think it's been a long time since I've felt as opinionated or as passionate about people and the world around me since then.
It took over an hour, but I found the entry that I was looking for. And upon searching for it I found another one that I was kind of looking for (but not exactly).
I need to get ready for work, but if you're really bored you should check out that first year. trusttyler, kyjellykelly, and a few other old names that friends have had since. Lots and lots of forgotten hate and frustration on my part. Early meetings with some who would change my life. And the beginnings of some kind of hero-worship for that Henry Rollins guy. It's really weird, this journal. Maybe someone besides me can get some use out of it though.
It's weird how your first impression of someone that really makes a difference in your life can not really be that much more than meeting someone through a mutual friend at first, but then you kind of get to know them a little more and you start thinking that your life might not be the same if you were never around them. Their appearances in my story and the personal emotions that I have for them are in the older entries. You just have to know where to look.
It's kind of amusing though, even if it does make me feel a little old and a lot less interesting.
So much of this thing... so many of these older entries, are a lot more interesting I think than a lot of what's been posted here recently...but it's almost not even the same anymore. Now it seems like I write more to document my time away than it does the way I sometimes feel. Sometimes I think it's been a long time since I've felt as opinionated or as passionate about people and the world around me since then.
It took over an hour, but I found the entry that I was looking for. And upon searching for it I found another one that I was kind of looking for (but not exactly).
I need to get ready for work, but if you're really bored you should check out that first year. trusttyler, kyjellykelly, and a few other old names that friends have had since. Lots and lots of forgotten hate and frustration on my part. Early meetings with some who would change my life. And the beginnings of some kind of hero-worship for that Henry Rollins guy. It's really weird, this journal. Maybe someone besides me can get some use out of it though.