So sick of love songs.

[i_hate_dudes]

I was driving home and heard that Linkin Park song... In the End. Every word of that lame song is how I feel, at least to some extent. It was really creepy.

With that said. I am tired of not having what I really want. I can't ever have what I really want... and I am saying this outside of materialistic things, such as, my tent, camera, new clothes.... blah blah blah. I want something that isn't really out of my reach per-say... But in a way... it is. And it is shitty.

There are a couple things that won't get off my mind right now. or people that is. I am a fucked person and I should die for my thoughts. I have dis-tasteful thoughts. I should be stoned to death for their impurity.

God. And he talks about _______ being a bad friend to me. He can go fuck himself. He fucking asked me something and when I tell him he fucking tells me his opinion. I don't want your opinion. A feeling is something that you cant control. It's just how you feel. I'd make this feeling disappear if I was able. Fuck that. I don't want to feel like this. If I can't make this feeling go away in a fucking year...

Fuck this shit. I am going to fucking sleep. Hope I actually can.