dear diary
he looked me in the eyes and said "i miss this" and i just layed there.
he held me so close to him and i felt his heart beat. he looked me in the eyes and said" seems just like yesterday."
he held me in his arms and looked into my eyes and just stared. I wanted to know what he saw. what he felt. what do we make of this.... but i sat there silently.
He felt so good next to me.
then as the night we went by.... he grabbed my face and whiispered into my ear those words that i longed for..." I love you baby." God how my heart melted.
But then as i wake up and realize that it was alll toooo good to be true. he lied as usual. he is such a good actor. and im fucked again.
sometimes i wish that i wouldnt swallow his heart. sometimes i wish that he wouldnt brake my heart.
Fuck him. fuck me. Fuck this.
Im back at sqaure one. AGAIN.
he held me so close to him and i felt his heart beat. he looked me in the eyes and said" seems just like yesterday."
he held me in his arms and looked into my eyes and just stared. I wanted to know what he saw. what he felt. what do we make of this.... but i sat there silently.
He felt so good next to me.
then as the night we went by.... he grabbed my face and whiispered into my ear those words that i longed for..." I love you baby." God how my heart melted.
But then as i wake up and realize that it was alll toooo good to be true. he lied as usual. he is such a good actor. and im fucked again.
sometimes i wish that i wouldnt swallow his heart. sometimes i wish that he wouldnt brake my heart.
Fuck him. fuck me. Fuck this.
Im back at sqaure one. AGAIN.