this is long and lame and random i apologize, this is the longest ive held my eyes open all day
today sucks. wake up around 10, i was supposed to have a soccer game this morning, but when i wake up my eyes are half shut because they both have huge styes (sp?) in them. so im like oh fuck cant play soccer half blind! so i miss that. then i cant even go to work cause you kinda need to see to make sure you dont step on a little'un or something. yeah i work with lil kids, theyre awesome. so i dont earn any money today either.
so im uber pissed off and go back to bed thinking of how great tonight was gonna be when i see charlie. so i wake up around 3 and mom says since so much shit has been going on with my body latly (unknown rashes that are spreading... face swollen up... half blind... loosing my voice...sleeping literally all day) that its trying to tell me to chill out and not do anything today.
so i start getting pissed cause ive been planning to see charlie for like a week now and we missed our annual hanging out ness on fridays for the first time in a month and a half :( so im so mad because i cant see him tonight. and i dunno if im gonna be able to see him tomorrow cause he might have band practice or something. its hard going out with a god he is quite busy. i really hope hes not mad because ive kinda ditched him (but not really cause its most definitly not my choice to have this) or at least had to break our plans the last few days...
however i most certainly do not want him to see me like this, face swollen up, eyes half shut, no voice. i look like shit and id rather stay at home then parade around the world thank-you-very-much. but im still uber sad i cant see my prince today :( aww and he just offered to come over here and hang out with me or bring me soemthing if i want. but i dont want him to see me looking so bad... is that shallow? i dont care its how i am...
so yeah. i miss my friends cause theyre usually here for you when things go bad or your having a bad day. were all splitting apart and it doesnt really bother me, but i wish we werent, maybe things could be patched up between us? i dont know that would require honesty and no backstabbing, something our group hasnt learned how to do yet :/ whats the rest of the 5 think?
so im uber pissed off and go back to bed thinking of how great tonight was gonna be when i see charlie. so i wake up around 3 and mom says since so much shit has been going on with my body latly (unknown rashes that are spreading... face swollen up... half blind... loosing my voice...sleeping literally all day) that its trying to tell me to chill out and not do anything today.
so i start getting pissed cause ive been planning to see charlie for like a week now and we missed our annual hanging out ness on fridays for the first time in a month and a half :( so im so mad because i cant see him tonight. and i dunno if im gonna be able to see him tomorrow cause he might have band practice or something. its hard going out with a god he is quite busy. i really hope hes not mad because ive kinda ditched him (but not really cause its most definitly not my choice to have this) or at least had to break our plans the last few days...
however i most certainly do not want him to see me like this, face swollen up, eyes half shut, no voice. i look like shit and id rather stay at home then parade around the world thank-you-very-much. but im still uber sad i cant see my prince today :( aww and he just offered to come over here and hang out with me or bring me soemthing if i want. but i dont want him to see me looking so bad... is that shallow? i dont care its how i am...
so yeah. i miss my friends cause theyre usually here for you when things go bad or your having a bad day. were all splitting apart and it doesnt really bother me, but i wish we werent, maybe things could be patched up between us? i dont know that would require honesty and no backstabbing, something our group hasnt learned how to do yet :/ whats the rest of the 5 think?