gayyy
nothing is good right now. well, im making good grades, but thats besides the point. i dont ask for too much, at least i dont think: do good in school, make awesome friends & keep them, make people laugh, and keep myself happy. well, im sucking in school, i do have really good friends & ive kept the ones that are always there, i generally make people laugh, but im ridiculously far from being happy. me passing school with straight A's probably wouldnt even make me that excited as of now. things are just shitty and i hate it..its so weird how one minute things are good, then the next theyre shitty. or, how someone you think is just an awesome person and you care a lot about, can be a total ass to you. or how you want things to be perfect..or just even really good, and it doesnt work. i cant stand that, and im having a really hard time with it. but, im trying to focus on other things. ive been really occupied with school and friends lately, which is good! i wish i never got a new computer, i wish i didnt have the internet, i wish i never met people from other schools!!, I WISH I NEVER GOT MYSPACE!!, i wish i never met people from myspace!!, i wish i didnt try so hard and put so much effort into things that didnt give that same attention back to me, and i wish things would go back to how they were before all of that stuff ever happened..then maybe id be decently happy. cause the past, what? 6 freaking months, have been the most back & fourth crap ever. so yeah, neat. (sarah..if you know what im talking about..can you believe its been 6 months?!?!)UGH! >:|