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Of all the shitty days in this shitty place... Maybe I really have had it with the redemption deal. Screw destiny, forget the mission. Let it all go. Sure I could have taken the hell ride with Lilah, not like either of us haven't spent time there already. I'm pretty sure she could use our connections with the firm to get us a reservation too
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I bristle at his words, and instinctively go to dodge the missile he hurls at me. Asshole. Always has to beat me down. Like I don't measure up to his saintly heroics. Well that's a laugh and a half. He's not some saint, far from it. When will the others realise that. Or maybe some have already...
"If I piss you off, well and good. Did my bit for the day then. And true I can't kill anything, yet. Emphasis on YET. But at least I can save, well sort of save, a girl from being eaten by this wolf you just put down."
I look down at the bloody mess that once was a werewolf and before that a human being.
"She got bit, but she's alive and relatively safe thanks to incorporeal ol' me. You'd better not be thinking of putting her down too. It's not her fault. If we can get to her in time we can lock her up, she could get through it like Oz did."
I glare back at him and shove my hands in my pockts.
"Buffy is fine, if a little surprised and pissed off. What's new? We talked and- actually it's none of your bloody business, is it? She's real thrilled about you not telling her about me."
I allowed myself a little smirk at that.
"So tell me something, Angel. How come there seems to be a reshuffling in the ranks at the moment? I haven't seen Charlie boy for a while, and I'm told Faith took off with Cordelia. Doesn't sound right to me. Not right at all. You may think I don't amount to much. But I watch, I listen to the goings on. I know you are planning something, Angel. And I've a feeling it doesn't bode well for your troops. Remember? The morons who follow you around blindly, because they believe you're some kind of leader, a champion." I snort at that, and shake my head with a wry grin.
"They don't know you like I do. Don't see the real you. You may have a soul, but you're still a monster. Just like me."
I look up at him again and lock gazes, my expression becoming darker and more grim.
"You had him killed didn't you. Gunn." I say it like it's a statement, not a question. I already know in my gut that it's true.
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Spike, little runt of a vampire. Why the hell I'd allowed Drusilla to sire him in the first place I had no idea. The fact that he had been in my shadow since he'd joined us wasn't lost on me. Yeah, I really was his Yoda. First in evil, teaching him to let the monster inside out, unleash it on the world. Now the twerp was becoming the new champion in town. Actually he was the damn champion,
"Is she cute then? Got plans for a hot date with wolf girl Spike? Do you get charged to for the movies or is can you get in for the kids rate?"
Picking up the wolf head that had rolled back to my feet I picked it up and started talking to it. "Oh wolf girl, I must shag you. Since Buffy clearly can't make up her mind about anything and ran off sobbing to herself. Damn Angel beat me again, just like he always does." The nice thing about ghost Spike, at least he knew when to shut the hell up.
"You don't have the first clue about the real me Spike. But your right about one thing, I'm still a monster. Wonder what it is that brought this monster back don't you?"
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He'd done it himself? Killed Charlie boy? Angel's answer only brings up more questions, like why the bloody hell did he do that, for one. And the glare he gives me tells me he's not pleased I've cottoned on to him. The fact that he's playing a deeper game, and sacrificin' his pieces if he has to.
"So, you're just going to go for the big picture, eh? Damn those who get in the way. Who cares about the foot soldiers as long as you gain the victory? Is that it?"
He tries to change the subject, mock me about Nina and wanting to help her. Always knew how to belittle and wear me down. But I'd learnt a thing or two under his tutelage alright.
"Are you going to drag Buffy down into this mess your making? I wouldn't put it past you. Always were a selfish prick. Got to have everything, possess everything. You're like a soddin' black hole, taking from those around you and never giving anything back. Why is that, do you think?"
I came over to stand right next to him, I could tell he was not in the mood to listen, but what did I care?
"You don't have the first clue about the real me Spike. But your right about one thing, I'm still a monster. Wonder what it is that brought this monster back don't you?"
"Hell yeah I do. But you know what? It doesn't really matter in the end. Yes, you're a monster, but you've always been a cunning, rational beast. Always liked to plan things to the last detail.
I reckon that if you killed Gunn you probably had a good reason to do so. The stakes are obviously high enough for you to be forced to take these kind of risks. And knowing you, it's probably some earth-shattering, change the world or at least take a swipe at the world, kind of stuff. Only problem is Angel, you're trying to do this all alone and it's eating you up inside. Don't need to be a rocket scientist to see it."
I lift my head to look at him again, and give him a grim smile.
"We're always going to hate each others guts with a passion. It's a given. But at least we know where we stand with each other. And the thing is, you can't kill me, you can't even hurt me. And likewise others can't use me to get to you. And I'm not exactly going to compromise you by shagging you. You need someone to trust, so why not trust me? Think about it."
With that I turn my back on him and trudge further down the sewer corridor. He'd probably laugh at my proposal, spit it back in my face. But what I'd said was the truth. He couldn't do it all alone. Whatever it was.
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