(no subject)
why wouldnt you
wash away
that gaping
hole of a
wound
if you knew
id never
desert
you
instead im
hopeful
happy
crying
and drowning
myself in
coffee colored
liquids with aftertastes
that remind me of
the only fruit
that makes
my throat close
up-i eat it
anyways
how are you doing
mr. lies a lot
through thick
teeth
hopeless
emotionless
heart
gobbling monster
talk to me
more while
we makeout
make up
the bed
you wouldnt
kiss me
and you drive
your hands
around my waist
until they crash
and clasp
wrists
and you orbit
me
no questions
clearly content
a comet
asleep on
my chest
undercovers
i like when
i cry because it
signifies
im alive
and that you
let me
close all the
windows
less interesting
than baby's belly
when he does
upside down
stretches
good god
where have
you gone
when we
were all we
needed-
now im still
deaf
dumb
blind
hopelessly
hopeful
they crush my
heart bury
my lungs
knee deep
immobile
imaginary
completely
not-real
dont mind the
over-used phrase
three drinks in
and im outweighed
not a light
weight but
sensitive to
touch you
wouldnt expect
me to
be to soft
so i see
myself as
fat and a
big broken
machine
you're all so
far away
id sew our seams
up
bring us
together
but
you need to
look my way
realize im crumbling
and hold me
up
rub my
back until
i fall asleep
satifyingly salty
tears and
even though im
out of order
id give you
such a huge
chance.
edited.
stolen from alex c, just to lighten things up a bit:
01) Starting Time: 9:35pm
02) Name: Cassandra Solange Berner
03) Nicknames: Case(y), smiley, sis, etc
04) School: forever?
06) Eyes: blue
07) Height: 5'6is"
08) Siblings: kyle
09) Been so drunk you blacked out: duhh
10) Missed school because it was raining: lets just call that USD
11) Set any body part on fire for amusement: uh uh
12) Kept a secret from someone: sure
13) Had an imaginary friend: nuh uh
14) Wanted to hook up with a friend: been there, done that.
15) Cried during a Flick: sure
16) Sprained any part of your body: umm maybe
17) Ever thought an animated character was hot: umm raphael
18) Ever had a New Kids on the Block tape: nope
19) Prank called someone: yeah i did that a bunch when i was petite, but my mom made me feel guilty about it
20) Been on stage: sure
favorites
21) Shampoo: pantene
22) Soap: oatmeal
23) Colour: stop spelling color with a "u", are you BRITISH?? but i like turqoise
24) Day/Night: Night
25) Summer/Winter: summer
26) Online Smiley: slanty face
27) Lace or satin: duhhh nope
28) Cartoon Character: trent
in general
29) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: uh uh
30) Love anyone? Other than family and close friends? bahh nah
31) Who have you known the longest of your friends: monique
32) Who's the loudest: brianna when she's drunk maybe?
33) Who's the shyest: umm none
34) Who do you go to for advice: parents or the top three friends. actually i like to complain to the whole world
the last time you
35) Cried: all the time; i like to eat tears
36) Cut your hair: never. no no, professionally? december in belgium. myself? like last month
37) Been mean: i called some girl a whore because i almost hit her car. that was today
38) Been sarcastic: blahblahblah
39) Met someone new: saturday
40) Talked to someone you have a crush on:.....
41) Missed someone: every day
42) Hugged someone: sunday night at the bowling party
43) Fought with your parents: i dont know, maybe about the disappearing champagne. thursday?
44) Wished upon a star: not super recently.
45) Laughed until you cried: last night when iw as talking to hillary on the nerdulator about that nico song
46) Watched a sunrise/sunset: nope
47) Went to the beach at night: umm last month
48) Ate a meal: pizza! like half an hour ago
49) Are you lonely: not right this second
50) Are you talking to someone online: yeah some big old nerd
51) what do you like?: how loud im laughing right now because i saw a commercial for some tv movie with rosie odonnell and she acts retarded LITERALLY oh crap
do you believe in
52) God/Devil: no, not traditionally speaking
53) Love: SUUUURE
54) Love at first sight: no way
55) Remaining faithful forever: yeah if youre not some trampy ho bag
56) Who named you: nele and paul
57) Favorite Band?: whatever, bad question
58) When is the last time you went to the bathroom: i think like a couple hours ago
59) What was the last thing you said online: "nope"
60) What is sitting right next to you: kyle? a crying baby. and by "baby" i mean cat baby
61) What is your computer desk made of: wood like a boner
62) What are the last 4 digits in your phone number? 0392
63) What was the last thing that you ate?: pizza
64) Where would you go on your honeymoon: a big bathtub
65) Who do you want to spend your life with?: comet. or a husband, if anyone could put up with me for a couple decades
66) How many buddies do you have on your list: ew 184
67) How's the weather right now: esnice
68) Have you ever smoked pot:mmhm
69) What did you do last nite?: tried to take a bath
70) What's the best thing that you find about the opposite sex: what? iiiii dont know, i like nerds and cute attention
71) What are your favorite type of shoes: crazy boots
72) How do YOU eat an oreo?: i dont
73) All-time favorite tv show: sex in the city or animal cops houston/miami
74) Dream car: volvo
75) What are your future goals: have i job i actually enjoy, maybe have a family, make enough money to live comfortably, have an orgasm
76) Favorite music: the world
77) Favorite food: burritos, hot sauce, sushi
78) Favorite movie: we're back: a dinosaur story?
79) Favorite days of this year?: some day in belgium, or that one friday with the party and the crazy
80) Are you too shy to ask someone out?: i guess
81) If you could change your name, what would it be?: chloe
82) Have you ever been in love: sure
83) What is the stupidest thing you`ve ever done?: this one guy. haha joke
84) Your first son's name going to be?: who knows
85) First daughter: chloe or zoe hopefully
86) Favorite drink: monsterrrrrrr or soy vanilla chai iced tea
87) Scary or happy movies better: scary
88) On the phone or in person: real life
89) Lust or Love?: both
90) If you could change something about yourself: no more procrastination, feel more self worth
91) Do you consider cheer-leading a sport: show me your boobs
92) Do you want your friends to do this survey? nope
93) Time done: forever later
sorry, no restricted numbers please